Iām donāt know if this is right place to post this but Iāll give it a shot. I am really not coping. Today my 68 year old Mother said to me, āIām going to punch you in the face in a minute!ā
I feel like Iāve been hurt by so many people, my ex was a nasty bit of work, I keep getting nightmares about things Iāve been through. In my dreams my ex tries to hurt me, he stabbed me with a fountain pen in one dream.
I feel like everything has, subconsciously, made me a little bit weird. I prefer to be by myself so I get labelled as a weirdo or a freak. I just tend to keep to myself and put my real personality in a box.
Hey buddies, Iām a new soldier here, Enjoying so much
You guys have better content In this forum like games and discussion and especially this room where Iām writing this right now. I checked almost everything last night and got some replies too thanks for that.
See you soldiers and always remember thereās a Linkin Park within you @Himan10@anna834 hey recent met soldiers
Judging by what has been going on in parks lately, Iām sure the lockdown ended weeks ago for a lot of us.
Yeah, but itās ok! I get to relax till then!
Yes I think? Give me the title/author and Iāll look them up.
Not many plans, Iām at work as always. You? Enjoy football too!
Everyone else, have a wonderful weekend!! Iām sorry I canāt be here much anymore but I do think about all of you and hope youāre doing good
OT: My manager walked in on me preparing his surprise yesterday at work -.- We pretending he didnāt see the cake and I casually walked up to him a minute later with the candles lit and everything and āsurprisedā him, it was pretty funny!
After work, I met my flatmate and a few of our friends to a nearby park and we had our first picnic of the season celebrating her birthday! We then walked home and stayed outside having more beer and cake and playing music till late. It was amazing!! I was so so so happy to see my friends again! (We didnāt hug but at least we were all together).
Iām at work now, yet another busy weekend ahead but should manage.
Tending sheep, again. Sigh. Yeah, feel a little sad today. Probably should avade the news, like corona death toll, conspiracy theories, the US want to stop cooperating with the WHO in the middle of a pandemy, police murdering a man just because he is black
Donno how to continue this post now.
Maybe with this
Very whise words. You actually canāt avoid being annoyed with someone you stuck together for a longer period, even when you love that person. To be aware of it can help.
Contradicts your, they are doing it just for commerce
Have a new friend, besides Linda. Itās Monika, she loves children but yesterday she decided, that Iām ok too.
So true! I hope it too.
Wow! Awesome drawing! Thank you for your WEP
So sad. Sigh. But maybe this is a good solution. At least for you and squeaks. Or you ask one more time, if they maybe are willing to seperate from their cats? Stay strong
Welcome to the club of weirdos
It is a good place for sharing your troubles.
We have this topic and a few more, I found help.
Sorry I meant, how can I write 4-5messageās reply into one message.
Anyway thanks for the edit content, got it now
Yeah you too soldier, Iām enjoying here as much as I enjoy listening to them. Which is your favorite song of Linkin Park (I know itās a very hard question and you canāt write it quickly)
Thank youā:hugs:no, it isnāt too harsh at all! I really appreciate your words&advice. Much better than all those concerned questions from my relatives āhow do you feel? I am so sorry! We know it is hard!ā(no, you actually donāt know the whole situation.)
And yeah, we defenitely have to find clear rules because nobody really knew what role they were inā¦
Sending you and Linda and Monika and all the other wonderful island sheep many hugs back!!!
Nice! @theearlywalker helloā:hugs:any plans for this long weekend? Hope youāre feeling good!
Youāre right. And thank you very much for your words.
Thank you to you too!
Yeah, it is complicted and complex and i still donāt really know how itās gonna be in future, but iāll just see. And yeah, i agree, we really always hope/think a person is gonna change.
Asking myself how i would want someone to act is a good way to think about this, thanks.
I really appreciate the thoughts&advice from you all here, it does help me to be able to think in a better mindset about it, to think clearer, to be less confused about all this. Thanks again!
thank youu!
yeah!
Hm, still figuring things outā¦ but i hope and think it can only get better than before!
he does, and also kinda scared of his ābadā bandmatesā¦
I feel the sameš
This is amazing!!!look at Brad and his guitar-i think i like him here the most, but everything looks great!
Sounds nice! iām gonna do something similar probably, my bf and i planned a picnic in the park where we found this really nice place under some trees(it became kind of our āstammplatzā since the virus is going aroundā:joy:), so looking forward to that!
Always love your encouraging words! stay strong!!!
Interesting and meaningful.
Speaking of suicide awareness, i noticed something good: apparently the bavarian health ministry(i think) started spreading awareness in public around depression&mental health, i heard them speaking about it on the radio, encouraging people to reach out and to not be ashamed of it and so on.
@Audrina87 i am so sorry to hear this. All the soldiers will always be here for you and with you!
And i find it totally normal that you prefer being by yourself after those experiencesā¦ we are humans and nobody could go through this without feeling hurt and changing the way weāre acting. I hope you donāt label yourself as a weirdo because of thatā¦because unfortunately we not only tend to judge others but also ourselves. Sending you maaaaanyy squishies!!!
I really like this sentenceā:blush:and welcome!
Aawww that sounds amazing! good to hear you had a great time! Hope this week will go well for you tooā:hugs:
Thank you for reminding me of that wonderful picture!!
Yeah! And in this place i gain so much more awareness.
Ot: bought some fabrics today, will try to make my own masksā:thinking:not really much else going onā¦but i have two free weeks ahead! in the second one me and my brothers will visit my uncle, we havenāt seen each other since around february, so iām totally looking forward to that!
Hope youāre all well and can enjoy the weekend!
@anna834 Thank you, heās my little baby. I actually have two dogs and I foster cats for a charity until they get rehomed. I basically live in a zoo.
This is my two babies, Archie, big one, Jess, smaller one.
Thank you so much to everyone for your kind words, I am really struggling with self/confidence right now.
Really good, meet my friend yesterday lucky me because we wanted to met today and itās still pouring since morning Canāt believe itās almost June and weather it still messed upā¦
Yeah yeah yeahā¦ Thanks again, BTW i checked all of your messages (secretly ) on gmail but there is a problem, i canāt send any messages using gmail. Also
if anyone who are using LP Forum on desktop then please tell me if you receives any notification of this Forum if it is not loaded in any browerās tab.
WOWOW this is amazing, i liked this one. I think this was the reason why mike didnāt want to make another album which sounds like HT or Meteora and people would call it āHybrid Theory 3.0ā and yeah the reason why people consider Meteora as hybrid theory 2.0
I donāt care what others said, i think, each album has different sound and different aspect and yeah i like every one of them (including those ones too which they didnāt released)
Thanks for the explanation Zanybelle, Really Appreciated.
I didnāt know about QWERTY live performance until i watched the live performance of LP in london (2006).
Also, If you listen the song (the live one) then it is like slipknot style and chester was damnnn amazing man. I really wanted chester and corey taylor collab. but sadly we only get this in our imagination.
Iām lurking. I just woke up and, just like the last few days - really the last few months since COVID-19 made its way here - Iām trying to drown the world out.
It was hard, true. But not anymore
My favourite Linkin Park song is A Line I The Sand.
Not me
Thank you! Happy you checked in!
sometimes even talking can help already, clear the air so to speak.
Take a bonecrushing hug and I want pics from the masks
Hey thats awesome! What cutys! And great what you are doing, helping stranded animals.
I have two dogs, they are my work partners, who do I kidding, they are around me all the time.
And a little tyran, who stays at home right now and learn my son to get independent. He still calls, like: āMama, the cat has put a rat skull on the carpet!!! Iiiiuuu! What should I do??? I canāt touch it! ā
Or
āMom, can I wash the sofa blanket? Camille has barfed all over it! ā
Call today: āCan I feed her dog food? I still have canned cat food, but run out of the dry one.ā she will never eat dog food. And tomorrow is bank holiday here. She will make this days living hell.
Really I take all the rain! Send him over! Itās way too dry! We heading for the next drought
I got yours. But I never had any trouble, getting notifications. For me, tech just works Dang, @the_termin8r isnāt in this topic, I want to tease him with it.
Yeah me too!
Donāt know what to say, besides take a big hug! saw you typing got me a big smile on my face
@lpfan61 behind some rose bushes, out of the constant wind, there were these
OT
Today would be my last day, if life goes as planned. I have worked 2 weeks down south in the Eifel and 3 weeks on the island. 38 days all together.
And now? No end in sight.
I decided to give me more special treat, invest in more expensive food.
And take it, as it comes.
I do love this island and especially those sheep
This is right this moment
I know I know, Iāve been gone. Was having a rough couple of months.
Everyoneās missing concerts and festivals. Iām going to miss a show in August and the artists donāt know when theyāll reschedule.
Like i told Anna, Iāve been having a rough few months but not because of the pandemic. Trying to stay positive.
This is nice to hear. I really find music lifts my mood too or helps me process when Iām feeling down. I just love that energy. One of my first threads posted here was about music being āenergyā! Your English is perfect. Everyone on here writes so well I always forget itās not everyoneās main language. Glad that you can practice with us Actually I love halloumi on a BBQ! Itās the best thing Iāve tasted
Good WEP and this song is awesome. It is one of the more uplifting because it does feel very much about letting go and know people will get what they deserve. Mostly I love the drum/electric guitar intro. However, I hardly voted for this song on acemasters thread
I can relate to nightmares like theseā¦ and I would say thereās an underlying anxiety in your past. Even though you may not think about it consciously, it remains unresolved. The real question is how to resolve something you canāt change anymore? One way could be to write about your experiences as though it is happening to a fictional character. Describe your emotions and memories, and most importantly write an ending. If you donāt fancy this, talking to someone who can help you process your past will help. It may help you understand why you found yourself in this relationship but also how to move on from the memories, because thatās all they are now - memories. They canāt hurt you now and everything you do now can be positive, always believe that. Archie is so cute!
@ShanonPark Welcome to the forum, we hope to hear more from you here and tells us something about yourself!
Iām doing well to avoid people and I still feel uncomfortable about being around groups although many people think this is now fine. Itās disturbing people can so easily forget what damage they are doing by interacting needlessly. Especially knowing people couldnāt even see their loved ones before they died only a few weeks ago. The government has ruined this by allowing the rules to be broken. Perhaps they want a second wave. It seems to be questionable behaviour and as I say, vote for the wrong people and they will destroy you in ways you cannot even imagine.
Great picture Anna! I always think of Chesterās part in the movie Saw 3D because it has my favourite quote: āYouāve judged others by the color of their skin and today, Evan, you will learn that we are all the same color on the inside.ā
This I said about OML only. However, lately I thought on what @HakManLP said about this album being more āpersonalā and I can see that a bit now so really he changed my thinking. Shocking, I know. However, the musical style is still too industry specific - I mean Stormzy is cool but please Linkin Park had a million times better rapping on Reanimation so why dumb it down!
Happy to help anytime keep us updated on how youāre doing.
I donāt know if he/them could. They were very emotionally draining albums for the band and written mostly before they became popular. I think MTM was purposely political because they really had something to say about what was happening in America at the time - itās not any better now! Then ATS was about a nuclear war, death to humanity type story and experimental. Living Things was a bit more Linkin Park in realness of emotion, and THP was a pure rock release! If they could have done anything close to Hybrid Theory or even Reanimation they wouldnāt have made OML. Unfortunately the band was so disjointed by this stage, everyone had side projects, family, general busyness they couldnāt connect to create anything as raw and unforgettable as HT or M. Hence OML is outsourced to third party writers. I donāt believe creating something like HT would have been as easy as people think. Sadly weāll never get anything like this now without Chester.
, especially with your own mother saying those words to you. And these dreams areā¦ (I have no words)
). Trust me, Iāve been called the devil at one time. 
; tomorrow have to work 10:00-13:00 and I have another free day 2nd June! 
thanks for that.
maybe write in your notes and copy paste hereā¦ 
You? Enjoy football too!
Iām sorry I canāt be here much anymore but I do think about all of you and hope youāre doing good 
Thank you for your WEP 
iām gonna do something similar probably, my bf and i planned a picnic in the park where we found this really nice place under some trees(it became kind of our āstammplatzā since the virus is going aroundā:joy:
Canāt believe itās almost June and weather it still messed upā¦
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she will never eat dog food. And tomorrow is bank holiday here. She will make this days living hell. 
keep us updated on how youāre doing.