My greatest fear just got worse

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:cry: :pleading_face: This post is so nicely written… I feel all you said here! I’m trying my best in my lil world to preserve/protect the environment and force (when needed) the others around me to do the same… but I always feel like I’m not doing enough and that, like you said, people now have a better instruction, there’s Internet,technology etc and they’re BLIND!!! They don’t see what they should see and think only for their lil life without caring for important things!! That’s why progress isn’t useful, environment was better when we was simple minds without education and technology! And that’s horrible! :sob:

Thank you for opening this discussion here! :heart:

Also, @Woco21 @rickvanmeijel you should read this thread…

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It’s really a burden what you’re going through my dear @mish3lka :hugs: thanx for sharing your deep fears and thoughts with us and I hope the process of writing it down brought you a bit of a relief. You are always welcome here to let go everything, thank you for your trust and be sure: you’re save here and we have your back. No laughter, no mocking. I guess we all have diffrent things that torture us and it’s only strong to make the step and open up about it, thank you very much for your trust into the family :hugs: :rose:

For me, as a mother, I feel some of what you describe too. This fear that the child could suffer and oneself is not able to help. Every own suffering is nothing compared with seeing your child suffering, in danger or being hurt.

Knowing this, it’s almost inevitable to not integrate the own flesh and blood into our own anxieties. This is what our brain does easily. Plus due to the new situation between the East and West Cowboys ( so called politicians) made the danger of a nuclear war a bit more real. Just take a big hug and be aware, you’re not alone with this fear.

BUT

Imo every day we have on this earth, every smile, every sunrise and every moment we have with our beloved ones is worth it! If Laura could speak - she definitely would agree and be happy and grateful that you gave birth to her. Because it may be that all these horrible things happen- but there is a legit chance that the worst case won’t happen and that, if something like this is going to take part, she would have had a good life beforehand.

The heart attack of a very close friend that happened only a few days ago showed me once again that the chance to be ripped out of this life from now to then within seconds is always given. This makes me trying to honor each day as a gift, to live my life aware and open, for everything it brings to me… good experiences as well as lessons to learn, pain as well as love and to value the good times as much as I can- because one thing is sure: it will end one day, this life we’re living - we just don’t know when and how…

Sending strength :muscle:t2: to you my dear, powerhugs :hugs: and a big kiss :kiss: on Lauras cheeks, I pray for you that you will be set free from this burden

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#5

Lots of thoughts and feelings you described there. Firstly, I’m not a parent so I can’t fully empathise with your fears and situation. However I do have my own thoughts about this and I’ll try to articulate them.

I agree that many people simply turn a blind eye to the world’s problems. Many people don’t care about anything but themselves and their own well being. Currently that’s the sad state of the world we live in. The fact that you can’t turn it off means you DO care! I know what this feels like. Most people around you will tell you to turn it off but your consciousness won’t alow it.

And that’s a gift, not a curse. It’s proof of your selflessness and ability to see beyond your personal needs and problems.

My advice: Let go of the fear. Fearing and thinking about disasters and destruction is useless. Yes, the problems in today’s world are alarming and your consciousness woke you up to these problems from a very young age. That’s a gift you need to utilize. Make people aware, do whatever you can to contribute to a better world. Start with yourself and ask yourself: what can I do about it? Like you say, for the sake of our children. I believe this is the highest goal in life that a person can strive for.

And you don’t have to end poverty and war on your own! Don’t start big, start small. It’s often the small things that make a difference first. Besides, the more people become aware and participate, the more support and easier it will be to achieve a better world.

Getting really philosophical here :smile: I hope that talking about it and seeing different perspectives will help you clear your mind and bring some order.

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It’s bizarre isn’t it? Internet opens up the doors to SO MUCH knowledge and what do most people use it for daily? Social media, netflix, cat videos and other nonsense. You’d think with all the problems going on that people would invest their online time in more productive activities.

True, LP dove into these topics multiple times, mainly with A Thousand Suns. @mish3lka Notice how that album concludes? After exploring themes of atomic threats and fears the album ends with The Messenger, telling the listener there’s hope, love and a reason to live.

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#7

Exactly!!! :angry:

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Yes, awakening to what the world is, is a tough realization. But it goes much deeper than what people believe. It involves the very stake of humanity. It involves our beginnings.

You are born into this world and slowly programmed to function to it. Media and mediocre education systems manipulate and entertain the minds of the young, to confuse them with lust of the flesh and materialism as a distraction. It;'s easy to manipulate the masses into fighting one another and divide them over ideologies that are poison. Not realizing that all in all, the political stance is the same, all a charade, just having innocent people hate each other.

If you repeat something over and over, it is bound to be taken word for word.

Life itself is a puzzle that too many people are scared of questioning. I myself have gone down and completely understood why things work the way they do. It also has something to do with fears.

You aren’t crazy but if its answers you seek, we can all help enlighten the way.

There are some threads here also talking about such things including:

and last but not least, my music/lyrics thread:

PS: Dont think you are crazy, I recommend slowly, but surely giving small seeds of information to others who are still dormant, it can spark interest :slight_smile:

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#10

so, first of all: you are always welcome hear, with anything you want to tell. I hope I´ll come along with my english, and sorry I don´t have enough time to read everything.
But I just want to say that I think it´s a common thought about bringing children into this world.
this world is really crazy, but when wasn´t it? The children are our future, and nothing would develop and happen, if nobody would born children.
I can understand your fear completely, but if you really think about it, you realize there is never the perfect moment for having kids. There´s always crazy stuff going on but your kid will never be mad about you that you have born her, I think…

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#11

The Internet is also loaded with half-truths, fabricated stories, and cults of people that believe the Earth is flat.

In the age of technology, does anybody really have the answers to our problems?

I wouldn’t feel shame for bringing a new life into this world. I mean, sure, the economy isn’t the greatest, and society isn’t any better, but I see it more as an opportunity to teach Laura and the next generation that evil has no place in our world. The more they can learn from our mistakes, maybe the better off they’ll be.

Unfortunately, there are things that we ultimately have no control over. That’s just a part of life. Sometimes it’s the little things we do that can leave a lasting impact.

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#12

Dear @mish3lka
this is the BEST forum to write your heart out!
rest assured, LP fans know how to listen proven by their taste in music!

I was haunted by the same questions and the same burden but at the same time there was the hardest fear that i am somehow,… involved in all this?

See, the fear you have is real but it can go away like a cloud that you will blow away but in order to do this you need to undesrtand… the problem.
“The truth shall set you free” and no lie can cover for it.

So here’s some of the truth i see.
The people who see the world the way you do, add this high intuition to have this recurring dreams, are a very small margin of the population.
The other side, that sees this world going right and blame everything on others saying “we’re doing this to ourselves hahaha let’s go get some beer” are by waaay out there far more!
Your IQ and EQ of the margin of 5% decides to not bring a child in this world and the other 95% brings 4 to 5.
What does that do to the average IQ and EQ that CAN save this planet?

My dear, you have been blessed with a miracle!
i am not suspecting this, i have seen the new generation and their intuition is way off the known scales!
i know a 7 year old who never touched meat in her life without knowing what it is yet
i know a 5 year old who does rubic’s cubes when i can’t even spell them right
and you are given the hardest task of them all!
to protect one and help it reach its full potential in today’s thorny world!

Because… these above are only the given truths.
not the truth that will liberate you!
so what is that?
there is an enemy of life and he is control of all these crazy people in high places.
and you have just given him a blow by bringing a diamond into this world
one that you will raise in the values that you hold dear which judging from what i read above, i would blindly trust you will do a great job!

Now…
i can really really help you if you trust me enough to follow the following directions even if it will sound and seem silly as many “doomsday prophets” do as you describe.

try my rhetoric for a sec.
imagine a guy or a girl who is here for children because of an infinite love to them
would they be able to have their own?
if they did, how would they be able to touch and help the children of others when theirs would have to be a priority?
when a train of evidence is created, somebody would have to steer it.
the driver does not set the lines and the only difference with you is that his window is not supposed to have a side view.
your family is your purpose and it’s the beautiful window you are here to shape
and my job is to steer you and your new diamond to the right destination.
equally hard tasks!

I am going to link you to a wagon which is a little way up front, but you will go to this youtube and hit “playlist 2016” and start from there after it.

I will show you something that your own eyes will not be able to refute, and that is…
that better days are ahead of us!
and your daughter has inherited them.
all you are called to do is make sure she arrives there safely!

but it’s gonna get a little cold and military scary first and you have to keep her safe!
our tasks are equally hard!

I promise, the fear will disappear when you see the truth and not having to believe in it.
i stop here though i could type more, since that’s the reason i am!
because i was another man before Chester’s death and someone new now.
just a driver!
and i will share this video (front wagon) of May 2018 because this is the one that triggered me as the fitting for the discussion.

what you won’t understand starts in January 2016 and each wagon is one month from then.

(after the 20th min it won’t make much sense now, so drop this one there.)

but also check this:

Linkin Park saw all this coming
Don’t worry hun
You’ll make us all proud with the diamond you are about to build!

May God bless your new family with His grace and protection!
And hey… if it ever crosses your mind
don’t thank me when and if you feel like doing so!
you owe this to Chester!
Him and Mike are those who created this train.
All under God’s plans and supervision!

If you don’t believe in God, rest assured nor do i
i only see proof and this is what my videos are about!
I’ll make you see Him too and how much He loves you and Laura!

i hope you and others in here grab hold and see this for yourselves as well.
I never judged whether He is real or not, i merely observed.
Observations led to part D. (you’ll know what that means when you get there)
i hope we get this train packed! no worries bout that… it’s a ship now (post July2018)
there’s room for all!
<3

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In the age of technology, does anybody really have the answers to our problems?

Supposedly, they did.
would you throw away the lies you believed in, in order to replace them with their truth?
cause we have this tendency to consider truth what we found ourselves because we are scared to roll back.
something new is scary, something known feels safe, even if it’s wrong…

Your mind might respond that my truth vs your truth, who can be right? where there is an answer to that.
the Greek word for the word truth is Α+λήθη which is no+deception.
therefore, if i have 50% truth and you another 50% truth, then we both share a 50% of lies.
hence… the real truth is out that window of both.
It can only be day or night no matter the arguments about it we can have inside a dark room of no windows.
Truth does not relate to our views of it. it just is.

That being said… would you drop yours to listen and to observe something you could have refuted (pre-judged) on an argument unless you really looked at the proof?
Is there any other thing that shapes the truth but evidence?

take the ride too fellow LP fan! (we’re one family here and i don’t know if you a bro or sis!) :stuck_out_tongue:
(u sound like a bro due to uumm… “certainties” that i too had)

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#14

The news will have you believing the world is about to end…don’t place your hopes, belief, thoughts into the news or politics in general. Control what you can control and anything outside of that, don’t give your energy towards. It’s not worth it.

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Sorry guys, I didn’t have any time to react until now. Thank you for all your answers, it’s good to see other points of view. I’ll try to summarize some of my thoughts on what you wrote.

Exactly!!! Currently we have these long months-lasting protests in the whole Slovakia against our government because some journalist has been killed. Nothing was even proven but they freak out and go protesting and they want a new government because they say they had him killed (recent proofs show that presumably the government didn’t have anything to do with that). In the beginning it was almost half of Slovakia.

Why don’t they protest now? Why don’t they freak out? It’s not true we people don’t have any power. We have, we’d just have to unite. And this is the hardest thing in the world it seems because now everybody is united just with his/her mobile phone, not with each other. I think everybody will wake up after it’s too late…

Yes, I know :slight_smile: And I know there is a reason to live. That’s not the point :slight_smile:

This. You just brought tears to my eyes yesterday, Pat. So much understanding! Thank you :hugs: It seems those fears (in various shapes) are shared by us mothers and you are on this path much longer than I am, you learned to live with them somehow. I am just at the begninning. I think it will always be there, I just have to learn to live with it, just like you did.

Thank you :hugs:

Yes, that’s what I’m trying to do in my everyday life. Not only I’m trying to live as caring for our planet as I can but slowly I’m trying to influence other people to care more. I teach at UNI so I have the advantage of many people knowing me, which gives me ways to contribute a bit to the awareness of our young. However, there still are some topics I cannot share publicly because the media manipulate our people so much that they don’t believe in the other side of the story - they call you a conspirator at best, a fasist at worst (I don’t know why but lately everyone who has a different opinion than the majority is labeled as a conspirator, fasist and extremist in our country - is it the same in yours?). So I have to be very careful of what I share because my public figure can fastly become a despised outcast and then nobody will listen to me.

Still I always have the feeling that’s not enough. I’d like to have such magic manipulative power on people that they would go protesting for my cause, throwing bricks into the politicians etc :slight_smile: I guess I watch too much superhero movies :smiley:

I lived like that for many years but I understood that it is important to know what’s going on. If everybody knew then we wouldn’t vote for such a stupidity into our governments.

Yes, how crazy is that, right? Just as @lpfan61 wrote, Cowboys… Just playing with fire until they burn themselves and everything else. Why are some people so stupid?? Long ago we scientists should have developed a funnel to pour the knowledge into one’s head :slight_smile:

Well it’s not like I don’t watch cat videos and distract my mind. I do. A lot. I mean A LOT (considering the time I have to dedicate to Laura). Movies and mobile games help with distraction. But that’s not turning it off, never will. And it’s not like I want those dreams to come. They come whether I think about the topic or not. Usually I manage to push it away easily but I have no choice after I wake up from a nightmare. Your brain works in your sleep, you can’t influence that :slight_smile:

And telling myself that “nothing will happen” doesn’t work. It never worked on me because I know I don’t really believe that… My scientific mind refuses to be so easily deceived :slight_smile:

Yes, thanks. As I wrote above, I try. It’s just slow. Too slow for the speed of what’s happening.

You can be damn sure I will !!!

Thank you for the advice. But this is just against everything I am. I care. I always wanted to change things in the world, make the world a better place. I just can’t throw away my personality. That’s not who I am and never will be.

Thank you for these words! :hugs: You can be damn sure I will raise her as best as I can.

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And guys, you know what’s “best”? Nobody in our country knows! Because it’s nowhere in news! They just repeat that Russians are bad because they have bigger guns but they don’t even mention the USA withdrawing from the treaty!
Have people forgotten how drastic nuclear weapons are? Have they forgotten why the treaty was created? In 1961 the Russians tested a nuclear bomb more than 3000times powerful than Hiroshima. It had parachutes so the pilots would be able to run away before it blows! The pressure wave ran around the whole Earth three times! This had initiated the treaty. People forget too much, it’s like they wanted war to happen.

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#17

So true! I really can’t understand why they don’t care and what I noticed is the much money they have the less they care for their surrounding! :cold_sweat:

Well there are exceptions as in every fields…but still…

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#19

This is also very true. If you research deeper into topics, you will understand how a persons vision of reality can affect universal laws in the long run.

Inducing people through programming through media is a way to prioritize your way of thinking to flourish. When you have many with hatred, anger, etc. in their mind, then you are practically just destabilizing them for whats to come.

Once we learn to control our thoughts, and emerge victorious against these demons, we can begin to understand just the root of it all, and yes, mental health is vital to the illusion we currently play.

If you go deeper, you will begin to understand how dualisms interact with each other in order to make our world function.

Don’t be scared, aim towards positive thoughts, help others and spread word, that’s all you can do. Some will believe you and some will not, but at least you did something about it! The human is not as powerless as they seem to be, the only difference between us and them is… $$$$$$

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#20

I didn’t know you were a teacher! Then indeed you can have a wide spread influence, and on an important generation. Don’t be afraid to be ‘‘labeled’’, that’s just a lazy tactic to silence an opposing opinion or research. It’s the same in my country yes, but I don’t care what anyone says. I realize that your job and reputation are at stake, but you also have to consider the importance of teaching your views, findings and the truth.

Nice example of anti-Russia propaganda which is rampant in our mainstream media too. They also never mention the amount of influence the US has worldwide politcally, economically, etc. They also never mention the regime changes that the US has forced or financed. Point is, mainstream news is massively biased, not independent and not to be trusted.

Basically every politician ever. I believe some of them have good intentions but most end up being caught up in this current destructive system. Because it’s designed that way.

Exactly, that’s all that matters.

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#21

@mish3lka, I totally understand what you are going through in terms of the nightmares. @theearlywalker has been trying to help me deal with the daily nightmares that I’ve been having ever since the day I was admitted to hospital. The only difference is that these nightmares do not occur as the same type each night unlike what you’ve experienced, each night is a different scenario, and only some are centred around death. An example of a nightmare I had which is relevant to the topic discussed is being in the same train as a politician that gets assassinated via a train crash “accident”.
Collectively in the past, I’ve altogether dreamt a myriad of ways which I could possibly die, which also includes a bullet to the head (somehow I subconsciously knew how it would feel if a bullet were to strike my skull), and of course nukes like you mentioned in your post.

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#22

Just realised I forgot to address some of the things you said:

In fact it has happened quite a number of times in the past, it’s a miracle we’re still here, for now:

As for the latest close call involving a meteor, I ever dreamt that the US, under the pretext of testing its asteroid defense system (I know it’s not there yet), deflects an asteroid and “accidentally” causes it to crash into a major city in Russia. After Russia found out what actually happened, a nuclear war ensues.

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#23

I totally understand what you are meaning @mish3lka and you’re not alone!

I care a lot about wars, global warming, and humanity in general, and it’s still bringing me down sometimes (that’s why i’m trying to avoid medias at times, because i feel like i’ve all the weight of the world on my shoulders, even if it’s not true hopefully :joy:)

I had nightmares in which i saw a tornado coming on my town and on Paris then. It happened a few times too and it was the same story each time. It’s scary but these kind of nightmares happens because we care. And i think it’s better to care than to don’t care at all.

Like others said, the best things to do is to keep doing what we can for making the world a better place. Everyone can do something for the planet, and i think it would be the only way to save it.

We need baby soldiers like Laura for keeping spreading the right way of life to the world. I’m sure that you will give her the best advices for life and maybe she would become the women that change one part of the world for good. :blush:

Thank’s for this thread, it feels good to see that there is people who do care. :hugs::hugs::hugs:

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#24

Looks like a good story. Carry on!

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