Yes, they are.
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Best of luck, @rickvanmeijel!
I just had lunch, after returning from this morningās dentist appointment. Todayās finally also the day of my appointment to get my laptop looked at. This will be my first time in a store since we quarantined.
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Hey family.
Lately everything has been difficult.
Work is hard, my thoughts are heavy.
And last week my grandfather passed away. Today was his funeral. Im losing grip. It is very hard to lose someone you really love and cares about you. 
Im question myself every day if Iāll ever be happy again. I havenāt been happy for a long time. 
Im asking myself if my job makes me happy. Iām asking myself if my friends makes me happy. Iām asking myself if Iām still good enough for this worldā¦ this moment of existing?
Arg. Iām lostā¦ tired every day. Just wanna stay in bed and donāt face anyone. Just wanna be left alone.
I had a date with someone the last couple of weeks. I didnāt feel any love. I was trying but i didnāt feel anything. No happiness or anything to make me feel something. Maybe i wasnāt made to love someone. Maybe itās the best to stay alone, so i canāt hurt anyone. I always hurt people. Because when i hear people talk they are happy. But with me itās sadness. Just sad answers. Try to sound happy but i canāt anymore.
Arrgā¦ im fucked. Sorry for telling this shit out of nowhere. Maybe some of you didnāt want this or maybe didnāt expect it. Sorry, sorry for beeing a little over dramatic. Iāll stop now.
Goodnight. Iāll be in my dreams, where im free and can do what i want to do.
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Hey you all 
My laptop is together with my new one at my mechanics. So no book work or Netflix that could distract me. I should get a real post done. 
I said it before, but have to quote it again! This is so amazing 
Do it! Itās just so yummy. I always use good Rum for the strawberries and a little bit of brown sugar. As wine I take Riesling or Kerner. You remember I grew up in the Pfalz. We drink white wine with sparkly water out of Schoppen
So I still buy the wine down there, one bottle organic wine by my favourite wine maker is round about 4 Euro. 
Happy you are! 
it is fitting exactly for you!
Sooo happy that it ends that well! 
Are they now forever with you? No separation any more? 
Wow! He is a huge guy! 
Camille still not really returned to my bed. She checks in some times. But seem still annoyed. 
next week, I leave again, so I think, we probably wonāt mend it this time. 
Very well fitted words what is a feeling with a lot of people right now!
Would be happy, donāt pressure yourself! If you canāt find time, a short check in is also happily received by us! 
The same for you @drounzer Iām just as happy about small signs.
Edit oh Jason, just see you writing 
Donāt ever be. Just happy to see you
Wow! Thatās difficult work 
You think, I call you kid? 
ok 
For the small one, and yeah, even so this would actually fit 
I mean the little one 
Lilles sister got her puppies today
Had the same experience on Monday and gave up. Went home and ordered online. Yeah, I try to avoid that. But this bumping masses were just too much.
we already cheering for you!
@theearlywalker always happy to read your words for me some flowers for you and @lpfan61 
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@drounzer hey!!! We love you how matter what!! You are always welcome here! Always!
We, I take you in every condition!
Sorry, I have no real advice for you. But Im sure you can find your way!
So sorry for your loss! Donāt be so hard on yourself! Grieving needs itās time. Take it, be kind to yourself, your soul.
Your job is a hard one, it would wear down others too, me for sure.
And think of your niece! She loves and needs you!!
You do too.
Fast fire thoughts from my side. I take you in my arms, hold you!
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Yes they are. Hopefully no more seperations! 
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Sending you strength @drounzer!! Try to take it easy, itās been a tough time as I read it. For now it may be hard to see the bright side of things, but you have to allow yourself some space to cope with it all in order to let it pass.
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Iād love to. But probably itās not me 
Congrats! how many of them? Give us pics or videos. Someone wants to see the puppies.
@drounzer - probably your bad feelings have been triggered by your loss. So donāt expect that you are gonna be happy these days as the other people are. Sorry to hear that youāve lost someone who meant a lot to you. Now and here you are free to be dramatic. Especially if it gives you any relief.
Looking forward to your news tomorrow!
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Best of luck!!! You are going to do great!!! 
Fingers crossed itās fixable and not too bad!
Sending hugs and strength! Iām really sorry for your loss Iāve been in your shoes (when my aunt died) and it still hurts but it gets easier over time
OT: Crazy day at work, it was really busy! The park looked like it was Glastonbury or something! Also, the heat is annoying me already, I canāt wait till next week when this heat wave is over!
In other - bad - news, my flatmateās bike was stolen last night. Sheās pretty bummed and upset a bit, looking into various options on how to get a new one since sheās not working at the moment.
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Here:
And a cover:
A little background, they are a local band from St. Louis, Missouri. The vocalist, Moon Valjean, is also a co-host/producer on the radio show/podcast I listen to (The Rizzuto Show, just in case anyone wants to check them out). Heās in 2 other bands, The Teenage Dirtbags and Goldfinger. Greek Fire is my favorite of the 3, they streamed a concert Saturday night and did a cover of Crawling. Moon has a nice story of hanging out with Chester.
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good morning guys humpy hump day 
- the sun shines and life is really slowed down atm on myside- besides the daily routines- my energy level is pretty lowā¦ however- mentally I am ok, the sun is shining and no catastrophies happened the last weeks- for me already reason to be glad
@drounzer get a big bonecrusher buddy your mood is really senseable in your post! Youāre not alone bro! I guess almost 99,5 % of the participants in this topic here know from own experiences or can imagine how you feel atm. The good news: with writing the post and posting it here you already did the hardest part: you opened up! The first step to start the way of feeling a lil bit better again and better with every next step 
Thanx for your trust! I send you love, hugs and strength back my friend- losing a near person is really a hard experience! Be aware about this! And sadness needs time - time to be felt and time to be cried or shouted out when you can! Donāt feel bad about this process! Itās so needed!!! Just try to care for yourself a lil bit betterā¦ give yourself the time that you need atm. Whatever that means for you. Grief is as individual as we humans all areā¦ and lol 100% here know how it feels to be a drama queen 
- with this being said- my time is over here for today. Sending you all good luck for your day - especially for you @rickvanmeijel 
! Take care soldiers 
Ot: 
Good goodnight 
Andy @lp13413 
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Godd morning everybody and happy wednesday
hello dear sounds good to me? You can do it and sometimes you have to say to yourself: āStop, I need a break and I take it RIGHT NOWā. Bonus squishy and strength to you
hi there buddy , so you may say that you have a penguin costume too? 
Also Iām so excited for Crash Bandicoot 4 - Crash is one of my childhood heros
Also: Did you already read about the Marvelās Avengers game coming for PS5? 
hello dear
YEEESSSS! Crash Bandicoot 4!
Also this is pretty cool with the catās names - but I have to ask: Whoās the real ābad boyā ā Ozzy or Axl?
hello dear - cheers up for Iggy & Radiohead 
But there are no copies of Meteora, MTM & ATS anymore? Damn, youāre right. I checked amazon + the official store. But I can ask one of my best friends, bc he bought me my Meteora on another web site If you want? And Iāll post the link then.
hello buddy 
- wishing you all the best for your presentation! You can do it! Donāt worry, keep calm and believe in your work and skills!
I also got a presentation for another assignment in an hour ā online 
hello andy , hopefully your laptop is working now. How many people are allowed in this store?
hello buddy
first of all: big hug and squishy to you. Donāt be sorry or feel uncomfortable for getting this from your chest. Iām really sorry for your loss, itās always hard - so itās ok to be sad and itās ok to be not ok 
Iāve been also through these situations, but thatās the daily life - sometimes there are dark sides, but thereās always sun on the other side and youāll reach this side soon! Youāre not alone with these feelings and thoughts and itās good, that you reached out and talked about it - itās always the first step. But maybe you should search āprofessional helpā? And that ISNāT SHAME! Thatās strength to do that, bc youāre fighting these feelings and will win!
Wishing you all the best for recovery and please show up for some updates on you buddy
hello dear , thank you for your feedback.
Thos drink sounds like āvery yummyā Also Iām a fan of white wine and kinda Riesling too. Also I like āWeinschorleā - So maybe Iām gonna try it.
Sure itās fitting, bc Iām the āmeteora guyā badumm tsss
So beautiful flower - do you got also some fruit trees in your garden?
hi there dear , thank you for the background story and the examples. Gonna check them out
hey you, dearbud , yeah YOU! Enjoy the day. That sounds quite good to me. Maybe youāll get some sunny breaks? As I said: Enjoy the little things, that can be bigger things later
Wishing you a good day
10 random and powerful tags to @Lilyope @Linkineli @lpfan61 @zanybelle @lplove @anngelenee @Honey8 @AJ_7 @alz89 @melisLP
OT: had breakfast and preparing for my online presentation assignment Iām gonna rock it (hopefully )
Wishing everyone a good day - stay safe and healthy
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Sending you lots of love and strength during this hard time
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Itās got to be Ozzy but itās close. Axel is more laid back.
OT - working from home today and listening to Daniel, (Aesthetic Perfection and Necessary Response)
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@anna834 Heās actually smaller than Thurman, and Iām also allergic to him. Wearing a mask helps with that, though.
@HakManLP As far as I know, there are no restrictions in that particular Best Buy. Obviously, you canāt enter without a mask, but I did see a couple people in the store without one, completely disregarding the sign in the parking lot that says you need it.
On topic, I just woke up, and about to grab some breakfast.
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Hey all happy hump day!! 
Hey thanks for sharing, Itās not being over dramatic one bit, and I think it shows strength to reach out and talk, even if itās just typing over the forums.
As someone that bottles things upā¦ I admire that.
As for your grandfather I can somewhat share sympathy I lost my grandmother when I was 12, and I and helped her when she was sick for up to 2 years prior, but she was the one person I always felt I could turn to at that age. Sending you my deepest sympathies and as much positive vibes as i can
I mean noā¦ at least not yet ā¦
Is it? I know it is on the PS4 but now I might just need to wait until (or if) I get the PS5 lol, but yes Iāve always loved Crash or anything by Naughty Dog actuallyā¦ Might be the Jak games the most.
Speaking of Naughty Dog I just got The Last of Us Part II, Iām 5 hours into it and all I can say is wowā¦ for such a dark, gruesome, post apocalyptic gameā¦ it is a beautiful game, and very heart wrenching, but not going into that incase anyone on here wants to play it (no spoilers here!)
Good morning, hopefully your energy level goes up a bitā¦ nothing 5, 6, or 7 cups of coffee canāt help Okay maybe a smidge too manyā¦
I hope you have yourself a great day!
I have a slightly busy day ahead of me, as today Iām helping with the audio books. Itās not bad but just takes quite a bit of time to but all the audio and text together.
I hope you all enjoy your day today! Positive vibes to you all LP family!
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Hey @drounzer I was going to ask how your date went but didnāt want to pry too much. Not every potential relationship works out and dating doesnāt allow you to truly know a person well enough to be sure whether you will be happy together. Sometimes you only feel this way after a lot of time together so donāt be put off by the lack of emotions at this stage. The important thing is to enjoy your time with others even if itās watching a movie or sharing a meal. Once things settle you could even go to a concert with someone and see whether the shared experience brings you closer. Myself as someone who is quite emotionally distant I would say time with another person really helps feelings grow and develop. If you find the right person they will be patient and give you the thinking time you need. Donāt feel disheartened because when you do love someone itāll be worth all the heartache and trouble 
Youāll only be happy if you allow yourself to enjoy life in small ways. I know thereās lots of things you are passionate about like wildlife conservation and music, so the more you experience these the more youāll feel life is good. Also, try to talk to family and friends especially when youāre feeling low so they can support you. We are always here if you want to talk and share your love of Linkin Park Iām certain your grandfather would want you to experience life and keep trying to find a small slice of happiness wherever you can. Itās not always going to be easy and sometimes things wonāt work out as hoped/planned, but the trick is never to give up. Keep fighting
I feel like this message was for @HakManLP rather than me? Did he win a M&G? 
If you meant me, youāre probably the only one whoās happy!
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the ADAC place is near Augsburg, apparently there are over 100 training places in germany.(this one is the nearest to munich)and itās really helpful! With many other cars(wich is stressful at firstā:joy:but itās good training too), different routes(even a small hill) and i think you pay 18ā¬ per hour. But opening times are weird, only monday, wednesday and sunday from 6:30-9:30 pm. But i really recommend it, after being there for two times my driving skills have improved a lot!
And thank you for your words
@alz89 i was watching it when he talked about your diamond painting too, so cool!!!
@rickvanmeijel hope iām not too late to wish you luck!?
@drounzer itās so good to see you here. Donāt apologize for telling us how youāre doing- thatās what we care about! Iām so sorry for your loss and how youāre feelingā:sweat:and you are and will always be āgood enoughā for this world. You are important to me. We all care about you here ok?I admire you for how open you are to usā:heart:i find you such an amazing, kind member of this family. Iām a little insecure about saying it bc thereās also pressure connected to that word, kind of, but i think youāre like a role model. If everyone in this world would be a little more like you, this world would be a lot kinder.
I was just hugging my phone bc i reeaaaallly wanna hug you. Iām sending you so many squishiesā:hugs:
youāre rightā:heart:
@HakManLP wishing you luck too for that presentationā¦
Aaaaaaaawwwā:heart_eyes:
Some animal related news from my side: iāve been calling several(or, almost every single)animal shelters in and around munich looking for baby cats, we have different addresses where we can go, but still have to wait(theyāre too young, have to stay with their mum, first no contact to strangers,ā¦)
Iām in homeschooling for this week again, and iām just gonna say, itās very easy to fall out of the āroutineā i had gained and falling into a weird, unproductive day againš
i wish i was already done with schoolš
atm iām stressed by getting the present done for my best friendās 16th birthday(on monday)(iām getting her different small things too but the main gift is a big canvas where iām gonna paint different memories connected with songs we both connect(ed) to over the yearsā¦ sounds pretty vague? Yeah, i hope it will turn out the way i imagine it in my headā:joy:)
Before iām gonna work on that, i think a good stream to watch if you missed most of mikeās live beat-making sessions is this one, he was using lp/fm sounds, i really like how it turned outā:heart_eyes:
Byyee, sending hugs to all of youā:hugs:
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I love Iggy so much!
Thank you! I would definitely appreciate it. Iāve looked on discogs but havenāt really paid much attention to see whatās out there.
How did your presentation go?
That is so thoughtful! Brilliant gift! Iām sure itāll turn out amazing!
OT: Today was a good and productive day, we managed to prep some stuff for tomorrowās weekly meeting and do other bits here and there. It is pretty hot here the last couple of days so people stay in and itās not that busy, I do hope it will cool down soon though, I need my sleep.
In other news, it is officially approved! I am going to Cornwall next month on holidays with my friends! I cannot believe it I am SO excited!!! This whole trip is going ahead as planned and we all canāt wait! It will also be the first holidays in almost 4 years that Iām not going home to visit family but spending it with friends instead.
Sending good vibes to everyone, have a great one tomorrow! Itās almost the weekend
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My mom and I helped a little girl celebrate her last treatment for acute lymphoblastic leukemia today.
I also just returned from a bike ride and a gopher nearly ran out in front of me. Luckilly though, he ran into a hole in the ground.
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good morning family quick check in to wish you all a good Thursday strength and love to you all guys
Thanx @Linkineli for the info. Glad you enjoyed the extra driving lessons
Quick hug sending tags @anna834 @HakManLP @evooba @alz89 @raz7
@drounzer youāre not alone buddy! Maybe you can listen to some music 
works always for me ā¦ head up!
@zanybelle lol ā¦ I know that you know itās true 
sorry - your contributions are appreciated, lp family is tolerant, open and I quote the band:
ā¦when life leaves us blind, love keeps us kindā¦
Stay positive soldiers
Ot: showering
@LP13413 touching ā¦ sending the best possible wishes out to her! You are such a caring person Andy! Thatās awesome 
good goodnight 
ohh and lol - what are gophers??
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