HEY! YOU! What are you up to right now! (Part 3)

[theearlywalker]

thank you my dear good goodnight then … Neandertaler just slept 3 hrs a night but seriously: have a good night’s rest

[LP13413]

Again, my work day started by going in early to move furniture into storage. We had a second CONEX box delivered yesterday, but today, a couple of us went in early to store more furniture inside the first one since we still have a little more room to work with.

What you can’t see in this photo are all the tables and teachers’ desks that are already crammed in there.

This is what’s left to move. I’m sure there’s probably more scattered around the building that will be moved as well, but for now, this is it.

The last of the desks are all in front of the bleachers, the rest of that stuff is miscellaneous furniture that will also be moved in.

I saw a cement truck out in the new lot when I arrived today.

@anomalia

Do you guys sometimes have thoughts like this before you post something on the forum? Like: OK, I want to post it but in fact who cares that I do/think this or that?

Sometimes I find myself typing posts, then deleting everything I just typed, and posting something else, or unrelated to what I was typing.

[HakManLP]

hello everybody, it’s wednesday just 2 1/2 more days to go

@justinkilmer

I get that, I’m still kind of like ehh on the pricing, but they have payment plans for it. and I knew I was probably going to buy one anyways lol I’m sure it’s just the conversion but how $589.92!!! It’s only $499 in U.S for the disc drive!

that’s the problem. We have to pay 499,99 € in europe to get the PS5. I don’t get it, why we pay more. That’s one of the points, why I’m not gonna buy the PS5 before 2021 christmas maybe. The two versions are another point, it’s a f’ck you to every collector, who wants the games in physical.

@georkost

Knitting…

some socks for autumn or winter?

@anna834

My mum came and replaced me for the evening. I got out in the woods and did a long walk, even climbed a little without any path.
Deep breath. I could feel getting human again.

hello dear good to read that you had some time for yourself
Also beautiful pictures and a walk in the woods is always satisfying sending a lots of strength and love to you.
Edit: I got a message from you, I’m answering later
I found some very weird pictures from our concert in Offenbach Damn, did you recognize the pictures with the one guitarist from Zebrahead?

@zanybelle

Glad you know this band. Mark only made the first 2 albums with the band and then there was a falling out. The other singers weren’t as good. I’d like Mark to make a comeback and I don’t know, he might even suit Linkin Park except they’re not dark enough for him.

Oh I thought these were your top songs! Don’t put yourself through the pain for anything less

I think the ‘very dark times’ for nu metal/metalcore are kinda ended? Speaking of ‘old bands’ - what are your thoughts about ‘Mudvayne’ and do you like ‘Hellyeah’? (some members of Mudvayne are in these band)
It’s always hard to choose, bc I want so many but sometimes you have to do a choice,which songs gives you a little more than the other one

@melisLP

No, I’m on the East coast of the US. Those are on the West. The smoke made it out here.
I’m just relaxing. Work was ok. I had my 90 day review for the position I started in May. It went well . Nothing but great results. Now hopefully this covid business get under control so I can get the raise I’m supposed to.

that’s really scary dear and the best wishes for the next things! It sounds quite good yet, when I understood it right?

@turexidrosa

Do we have any face revelation thread around yet? Lol i’d like to know how y’all look like for real

that would be interesting

@evooba

Ah that sounds good! Thank you, back at you for the week too!
Yeah, I do some stretches but not a lot, I’m in quite some pain still when I do specific movements.

thank you dear - take little steps and take every step as an accomplishment
That really sucks with your plans (flight, visiting your parents) but safety first, right?
Stay positive and enjoy the day

@AngeDeLaChance1905

I will take the English exam to pass the department I earned at university, I am currently preparing for this exam.
How is your life flowing

best wishes for that exam - you can do it! Also I’m doing good, still take some time for tattoo recovery. But also enjoying the last hours of ‘summer’
Any plans for the weekend yet?

@anomalia

Do you guys sometimes have thoughts like this before you post something on the forum? Like: OK, I want to post it but in fact who cares that I do/think this or that?

that’s a really interesting posting dear, and that’s my ‘point of view’: Sometimes, when I write a new posting, I think to myself that maybe nobody or hardly anyone cares what I write, how I am doing or what I do. Nevertheless, especially in Corona times, it is a daily routine for me that I wouldn’t want to miss these days. Furthermore, through this exchange I also got to know @ anna834 for example and we visited a concert together. I find the exchange with so many people from different countries simply exciting and even loving ones from people who live far away can do you good
So don’t be afraid and share your feelings, thoughts and everything you want

@framos1792

I think at times I’m expecting to people to shut me up for good saying enough is enough

naaah, I like your ‘crazy attitude’ dude

@Linkineli

Partly for health, more for the animals and environment. I’m not completely veggie, but avoiding meat as good as possible. It feels good to me😊
Tomorrow we’re doing a “oktoberfest day”, we all wear our “tracht” in school😉
And love your tatoos! Thx for sharing!

That sounds good, when it satisfies you. Also thank your for your compliment and how awesome is this: An ‘Oktoberfest day’ at school? Even the teachers?

@theearlywalker

good morning family humpday yay - have to keep it short - morning rush as always the last 3 weeks but yeah, it’s over today next week- that keeps me up
Sending you guys strength- - and remember that we’re in this together bonecrushers and #makechesterproud
Ot:

hello pat it’s over → you’re gonna go on a vacation? yeah, just 2 1/2 more days. Maybe some more energy…and coffee

@LP13413

Again, my work day started by going in early to move furniture into storage. We had a second CONEX box delivered yesterday, but today, a couple of us went in early to store more furniture inside the first one since we still have a little more room to work with.

At least you have good weather Andy - take it to regain some energy , but just this question: How old are these chairs/desks? It looks like ‘the 80’s’ or something

powerful and lovely tags to @drounzer @anngelenee @raz7 (sad news: the rammstein circus project is also canceled), @IronSoldier16 @lplove @lpfan61 @Lilyope @alz89 @rickvanmeijel @amitrish

OT: Just had an awesome morning walk and gonna enjoy the last sunny hours. Also I have to buy my dad a birthday gift, because he’s got birthday this week

Wishing everyone a good day - stay safe, healthy & awesome

[turexidrosa]

@HakManLP

that would be interesting

then game on! where’s yours?

[anna834]

So, I promised Anna to reply. And yeah, I want to, cause it is a theme I read a lot about.
But I have to convince my brain to concentrate.

@anomalia

Do you guys sometimes have thoughts like this before you post something on the forum? Like: OK, I want to post it but in fact who cares that I do/think this or that?

Hm, it’s different for me. It’s easier to post in front of so many. So I don’t have the feeling, I put too much on someone. It’s getting more difficult, the more I’m attached to people.

@anomalia

Have you heard of it? It’s quite interesting. It’s about the bonds between a baby and its mother (or its main carer). To put it in simple words - if the mother reacts to her baby’s emotional needs (if she talks to the baby, hugs her crying daughter/son, gives them sense of safety and so on), the baby learns that the world is safe place to live, relations with oth

I have read a lot about this. First was: “Die Suche nach dem verlorenen Glück” (the Continuum Concept) by Jean Liedloff. She was one of the first to look in that direction. That she made her own concept out of it, isn’t really for me. But still, interesting read.
My absolute favourite are the books by Michel Odent. He is a French obstetrician and childbirth specialist. He has collected and did a lot of research. And looked not only on the consequences of a bad mother child bounding for the individual, but also for the society.
Later my therapist worked with me on base of recognizing this inner child. Because, yes, if you miss care and love as a child, you forever expect this bad treatment. But you also have this craving for love and recognition, that actually no one can fulfil, cause it is from the unsatisfied child in you. And we tend to condemn this child in us, cause it’s behaviour is annoying, inappropriate. But it won’t leave, just cause we hate it. On the contrary, it is used to this kind of treatment, expects it.
It’s about recognising this, start to care for it, see what behaviour comes from it and not condemn but love it.
So, probably enough for now.

@anomalia

So why do some people suffer and some seem to be immune to children’s traumas?

I don’t think, that there is a child immune to this.
It depends a lot on witch age this happens. How stabil the groundwork actually was before.
And of course reacts everyone different, what he makes of it. Some inflict the consequences on themselves, have mental troubles. Some get cold, efficient, ruthless. They probably are successful in life, but actually trauma free? I don’t think so.

See, even the bat has his doubtful troubles

@framos1792

I think at times I’m expecting to people to shut me up for good saying enough is enough

Come on, you can’t still believe this?
And if I say, how awesome it is to have you back, the life you bring into here, how many react so happy to your acknowledgement, you start running again

@Linkineli

Maybe another farm report can make you smile?

Yeahhhh! Exactly the best for me love your farm story, your words. Thank you so much.

@Linkineli

feel so free and happy there and now “being back in my own life” seems so boring and like it doesn’t really matter

Totally get you. Sigh. So sorry.
I not really dropped out of school with 16, cause by then I had changed from Gymnasium to Realschule and was finished anyway. And dang, was I happy about it! I did an FÖJ in a Landschaftspflegeverein who fought for a nature protection pasture, we had sheep, lived all in caravans. It was totally fulfilling. And yes, wouldn’t do it differently today.
But, sigh, yes, can’t recommend to leave school that early, when you want to go further academically.
I did it later, got one year FOS got my Fachhochschulreife, started studying. But this road is a stony one.
Please, take care of yourself. Look what best for you! Think and feel all the options you have. Going through, just finished Realschule for now, take a sabbatical year, or change school … be kind and recognizing with your own wishes.

So, all this writing did actually distract me a little.
My publisher, or better ex publisher, cancelled our contract today. She didn’t like the character development in my second book. And I’m not ready to sacrifice this character on the alter of being published. No way. Especially cause all my feelings say, that this is the best part of the book.

Thanks you all, I finish here, my grandma awakes and need my attention.

[anomalia]

@framos1792

No getting mad at her this week! she gets a free pass

Zennnnnnnnnnn…

@Linkineli

I once read something about an experiment(don’t remember specific parts or where i read it) about monkey babies and their needs, it was about finding out what they want/need the most: food/water or their mother’s love. They all chose love over food.

I think it has also been discussed during the lecture:)

@Linkineli

idk why this ended so sad now

It doesn’t sound to be sad. Happiness doesn’t have to be expressed in a loud and intensive way. It’s pure peace that emanates from your post.

@evooba

I’ve done quite some research on the subject, interesting findings!

Tell me more (in short words) as I’m getting even more interested.

@LP13413

Sometimes I find myself typing posts, then deleting everything I just typed, and posting something else, or unrelated to what I was typing.

Same here

@HakManLP

Also I have to buy my dad a birthday gift, because he’s got birthday this week

Do you have any idea what it could be? (I think that it’s extremely hard to buy a good present to a man or a even a boy).

@anna834

Later my therapist worked with me on base of recognizing this inner child.

I’ve heard of the conception of the inner child and that the part of the therapy is to take care of the inner child, talk to her/him or write letters. But it’s what I wouldn’t like to face myself. On one hand, I’d feel stupid to talk to someone who doesn’t exist physically. On the other, feeling sorry for myself I would have to be in opposition to/or accuse my mother. As a totally imperfect mother I’m not sure if I have such a right. I think that people sometimes don’t give you what you need but what they have themselves. It’s like I blamed you that you couldn’t give me a million dollar - because I needed the money and you didn’t have it.
(or maybe my pace of thinking is sick and should be treated )

@anna834

I don’t think, that there is a child immune to this.

Maybe it’s a snowball effect. You start with a tiny childhood trauma which gives you some problems that cause the next ones and the next and the next…

@anna834

I’m not ready to sacrifice this character on the alter of being published. No way. Especially cause all my feelings say, that this is the best part of the book.

Agree. I think they should ask you for such things as long as you are the author. They should help with details like spelling, rearranging sentences (if they are for example too long). But they shouldn’t change the concept.

[anna834]

@anomalia

I’ve heard of the conception of the inner child and that the part of the therapy is to take care of the inner child, talk to her/him or write letters. But it’s what I wouldn’t like to face myself. On one hand, I’d feel stupid to talk to someone who doesn’t exist physically. On the other, feeling sorry for myself I would have to be in opposition to/or accuse my mother. As a totally imperfect mother I’m not sure if I have such a right. I think that people sometimes don’t give you what you need but what they have themselves. It’s like I blamed you that you couldn’t give me a million dollar - because I needed the money and you didn’t have it.
(or maybe my pace of thinking is sick and should be treated )

Oh, I never talked to my inner child
Would be weird indeed.
It was more talking about feelings you have in certain situations, or triggers. And then the question came, where I feel this feeling exactly, how it feels and how old it is. And with this, I could find out, that some of my reactions today have actually nothing to do with the situation at hand, but are triggered by old emotions.
But yes, I had this point in therapy, where I could visualise the small, crying Anna and could take her into my arms, feel compassion for her, not disgust.
All this actually changed my feelings for my mother completely. I couldn’t stand her befor, couldn’t even have her looking at me. She was not only not a good mother, she needed caretaking herself and put this on her small daughter.
But today, with this therapy, I have nothing in me, that blames her. No bad feelings, they are all gone. I can love her, see her struggle, see her mental illness without any trouble for me. Now, I can be strong for her.
Sigh, still not there with my father issues, but working on it.

OT
My grandma woke up, all confused and panicky. So I crawled into her bed, cradled her. She was so happy, snuggled realy close. And then I told her stories about our past, my time with her as a child, Christmas, fairy tales she told us. And she was all listening, then sad: All gone, all gone. And I contradicted her, that this is all in us, that the love she gave us will carry on. That she lives on in us, her love lives on. It is ok now to relax, be weak. I carry her. And when all strength fades, love stays strong. She can go now, her love will continue. She was so happy, did fall asleep then.

[evooba]

@theearlywalker

Sending you guys strength

And back at you! It’s almost the weekend

@turexidrosa

Do we have any face revelation thread around yet? Lol i’d like to know how y’all look like for real

Some of us have met multiple times in real life so I guess that counts.

@HakManLP

That really sucks with your plans (flight, visiting your parents) but safety first, right?
Stay positive and enjoy the day

It does yeah… I always go home twice a year but I doubt I will this time, I was there last early January… and with stuff happening the need to go is stronger. I hope this virus situation will calm down so hopefully I can travel before the end of the year.

@anomalia

Tell me more (in short words) as I’m getting even more interested.

It’s a long discussion, I can just refer you to some papers I’ve read or whatever.

OT: Uneventful day at work, still uncertain about what’s going to happen in the coming days. It was also very quiet so I had the chance to properly speak to my manager, he says the moment I need to fly home or decide that it is safe to do so, he’ll make sure I can do it, and I truly appreciate that. It’s still surprising to me sometimes how different he is from my previous boss back in Greece. It’s crazy…
Anyway, going to have a relaxing evening at home, going to order grandson’s debut album (so damn excited!) and listen to some new music.

Have a good one guys

[lplove]

@framos1792

I think at times I’m expecting to people to shut me up for good saying enough is enough

Don’t tempt me.

[framos1792]

@anna834

See, even the bat has his doubtful troubles

Do I? I may think it but do I ever stop posting(?)

@anna834

you start running again

Count on it, peace

@anomalia

Zennnnnnnnnnn…

what was it(?)
I hope an annoying little bat in the back of your head saved her from punishment!
Come on, much more preferable being a little twister than being sick in bed

@anomalia

extremely hard to buy a good present to a man or a even a boy).

Nooooooooo, you just go into a store and turn off your brain, the first thing to catch your eye that’s
1-useless
2-something no one would ever buy
3- childish

YOU HAVE A WINNER!
My lil bro got me a bottle of hand sani that has baby yoda on the front-winner

@anna834

Oh, I never talked to my inner child
Would be weird indeed.

cough cough

@lplove

Don’t tempt me.

You feel bad after anyway

Ot: day
(Concise post )

[theearlywalker]

good morning family interesting conversations going on here! It’s very bracing.

@evooba thank you I’m sorry to hear about these troubles- the pandemic has become a part of our life until they found a vaccine or at least a medicine. In in such situations as you’re in, it becomes very real and the restrictions have a real deep impact. . Stay strong Eva, and I hope the situation at home gets better

@anna834 awww very touching what you share with us here! Take good care of yourself. I won’t repeat my words - but I really feel how you do this out of a loving heart. sending you strength and - the part you mentioned about the publisher: meh! But the 1st part is out and it’ll find it’s way stay strong my dear! Bonecrushers, we’ll speak on the weekend again, right?! ( wondering if our youngsters still know this sign ) lol - have the best day possible Anna

@anomalia I can say that I care and that I felt seen, appreciated and partly also

Ok- time is over again lol it’s crazy fast, the time for me atm! Stay strong soldiers , #makechesterproud

Ot

GN @LP13413

[LP13413]

Hi.

I’m running around frantically trying to throw some sort of a breakfast and a lunch or whatever together so I can get out the door.

I woke up this morning at 9:30, and after rolling out of bed a few minutes later, I get the message asking me to come in at 11 o’clock, so I have a little less than an hour, but I wanted to pass this along from the other day.

I hope you’re all having a terrific day!

[justinkilmer]

Hey all! Happy Thursday!

Hope you all are doing well today!

Alas again I feel busy busy busy This is just life now… if this is what becoming an adult is… can I cancel my subscription?

@anna834

You don’t get away with this pretend of suffering hero I know exactly well that bailing hay is exhausting, yes, but still one of the most fun things to do.
Thanks for your words

Sad! really tried to play the guilt trip card It’s really not too bad, like you said exhausting really. It’s usually not too bad.

@anna834

She was so happy, did fall asleep then.

I love how comforting you are towards your Grandmother!! I’m sure she is very happy to have you and your mother with her at this time!

Still sending out hugs as needed

@framos1792

I think at times I’m expecting to people to shut me up for good saying enough is enough

You think that’d work?

I sure as heck don’t

@HakManLP

that’s the problem. We have to pay 499,99 € in europe to get the PS5. I don’t get it, why we pay more. That’s one of the points, why I’m not gonna buy the PS5 before 2021 christmas maybe. The two versions are another point, it’s a f’ck you to every collector, who wants the games in physical.

I kind of see the point for the Digital vs Physical versions, but at the same time I believe all things are trying to go more Digital now. I for one prefer physical copies lol.
Hopefully by Christmas 2021 there is a nice deal for you! I’ll keep my fingers crossed!

Well after a long spell I finally got back into doing some side art for fun! I’ve missed it, so going to try and make time for it going forward!

As for now… back to work. Got my coffee (need to get more… almost out overall!! ) and have Good Charlotte playing on the computer, good enough for now!

I hope you all have a wonderful day!! Hugs and positive vibes to everyone as usual!

[raz7]

Just finished watching a livestream with Daniel… he said my name again when I was promoting the AP Discord!

For you guys, can you share and presave this please?

Pet Sematary by Aesthetic Perfection

[evooba]

@theearlywalker

thank you I’m sorry to hear about these troubles- the pandemic has become a part of our life until they found a vaccine or at least a medicine. In in such situations as you’re in, it becomes very real and the restrictions have a real deep impact. . Stay strong Eva, and I hope the situation at home gets better

I hope so too, I’m stressing over this quite a lot lately, I just really really hope it won’t turn out to be as bad as they’re telling me.
And yes, hopefully a working vaccine will be available soon, I fear this coming winter is going to be worse.

@justinkilmer

Got my coffee (need to get more… almost out overall!!

Dude, stock up on your coffee before you run out, we wouldn’t want that to happen now, would we?!

OT: Second to last day before my manager is on holidays today and it was MADNESS at work. We had to deal with so bloody much, we both ended up with a massive headache and more stress. Him cause he doesn’t want to live me in the shit when he’s away and me because I need to deal with the shit on top of worrying about everything else while he’s away. Oh, and we have the conference to prepare for as well and we haven’t done anything yet.
I was supposed to leave early today (had some plans with my cousin) but damn, ended up leaving at like 5pm (better than nothing I guess).

I am now chilling at home, enjoying some coffee (I really fancy this Colombia blend I got actually), listening to music and cooking dinner. Hopefully it’ll be a relaxing event and I won’t be bombarded in emails and texts.

Hope you guys had a lovely day!

[raz7]

https://www.facebook.com/watch/?v=650769922542258&extid=ZrOGfwl6kpsJ3SXI
Just in case where abouts he said my name… 33:30 onwards!
Rhianna is what he says

[evowarrior5]

And here it is:

And next to its brother:

I ended up leaving out the date for now; might add that in the future if I really want it.

Also I had half an hour to kill in the city before my appointment and I happened to find this shirt in a store:

There was also an LP shirt there that had 6 people on it, but I find it hard to say they were the band members… when I grabbed it I was like “oh cool this one has the band printed on it”, but when I actually looked at the faces I was like “who are these people” xD I didn’t take a photo, I regret that now…

[anomalia]

I wasn’t active today because I was totally busy reading. Waiting for a book on attachment theory, I grabbed something completelly differnt and finished it in one single day (420 pages). It was To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee. Quite addictive a book.

@evooba

can just refer you to some papers I’ve read or whatever.

I’d appreciatiate it.

@framos1792

lil bro got me a bottle of hand sani that has baby yoda on the front-winner

If I was a lil brother to someone, I’d do the same

@evowarrior5 I like like the one with the thread red xxx

[LP13413]

Twelve hours later, I am home from a fun day at work. The reason I was called in so early was to disinfect every single doorknob, locker handle, railing etc. in the entire building. Afterwards, one of my co-workers also came in to help me fit as many desks into the second CONEX as we could. We maxed out both of them, and we still have more furniture we have to store before students are let back in the building on Monday. We’ll either have to get creative in storing everything, or order a third, or possibly a half CONEX, or something.

Oh yeah, and I’m more than likely working twelve-hour shifts at least Monday and Tuesday of next week. That’s all I know right now, and I don’t know if I’m working this weekend or not, though at this point, it’s expected.

I know one thing, after all the overtime I was racking up last year, and quarantine taking the steam out of my engine for a few months, it’s great to be back and feeling busy again.

[theearlywalker]

good morning family Friday last day of the working week for the most of us ( strength to the weekend workers ) and WEP day and lol - the next what comes into my mind for today is me getting stuff done Lol but at least it’s my private business and also ketchup here today

coming here is my morning ritual- without this I would really feel a lack- and just reading your posts without time to answer is really unsatisfying Today I can enjoy and answer, bc it’s my free day - yaaay

@evowarrior5 cool looks exactly what you wanted it to look like grats!

@anomalia whoa 450 sites??? Incredible- I’m impressed- what is it about, this book?

@raz7 yaaay so cool - in what context did he mentioned your name? Had no time to listen to it all

@anna834 strength to you dear

@evooba I really pray and I try to be aware of the risks and keep the hygenic rules… and I just hope that as many ppl possible do the same… it’s the only way to keep it restricted the rest is praying… hope your back gets further better? !! Stay strong you can do it! Everything you have to! Take care Eva

@justinkilmer heeeyooooo heeeeheeeheeeyooo nice to see ya here

Ot: starting my routines

@LP13413 what is CONEX? And yaaay I can relate to this feeling to feel good being busy again- but the step that it gets over the head and becomes stress is so small good unwinding Andy and sleep good! How’s the boss?