I don’t like doing sport with a lot of people around me too.
That’s why I go in a park, early in the morning, when there is almost no one for looking at me doing it. If you’re afraid about people’s opinion at the gym, you can try to go somewhere they are not so much.
100% with you bro 
I am so sorry for this Rory! As for other people, it’s so mean but you can safely ignore it. But as for your mother, it’s unforgivable! It’s a type of person for whom anything you do will never be good enough. It’s too hard and destroys your self confidence and motivation. I had the same with my mother. I feel you and now I completely understand why you have mental issues.
All I can say is, try to ignore it, it’s the only way. It’s not important what they all think. The most important is how you feel. Do you feel healthy and comfortable with your own weight? If not, do sport, but not for others - for yourself! Ignore them or they’ll destroy your common sense. You have your own mind and you know best what to do and what you want.
And if you want them to shut up, answer them that you’re happy this way. Even if it’s not true (yet), it’ll make them stop eventually. You have to look like you mean it Though. If not, you can say “even if you wouldn’t, you’d not do it for them but for yourself”. This is the best way to make them stop, they’ll eventually stop trying to make you feel bad. And the most important - stop trying to make your mom happy - nothing will ever be enough, it’s a blind end. Believe me, it’s hard, but the sooner you’ll stop, the better.
As for sport, you can try to buy a TRX. It can be used practically everywhere (outside on a tree, or home) and you can exercise using YouTube videos, just search ‘TRX exercise’. We have it at home, this is how it looks like:
It doesn’t look that way but it’s powerful. After an exercise, when done properly, you’ll feel muscles that you never thought you had! If you do this once or twice a week for an hour you will lose weight like nothing. It helped me a lot. If you want, you can write me an email and I can explain more or give you some more videos or materials: bacikova.michaela@gmail.com
PS: oh an if you think you’re a whale, try to think what I look like now in 5th month pregnancy 
really well said!!! completely agreed!! 
Well I have overweight despite that, my ass is so big I buy panties 2 sizes larger than the rest of my clothes 
But as long as you feel good, it doesn’t matter. If you’d do an exercise, it’s because you feel unhealthy, not because you care what you look like. What you have inside is important, not the outside look.
Maybe you can try some simpler fittness excercises. There are tons of it on YouTube 
Head’s up, if you want it, you can do it!
It’s actually quite easy - and this coming from a complete klutz - with major hand grip issues (I just about can’t even wash my car cos I can’t hold the brush for too long without pain).
And there are so many exercises you can do with it, it’s amazeballs. Or if you got a swiss ball, there’s like a thousand million exercises you can do on that too.
But you gotta find something you want to do, that you can fit into your day, that you enjoy. Otherwise, it’s just too hard. I used to hate the gym too - but I found one that isn’t pretentious and full of bone heads, and I just go around and do my thing with my earphones in, and ignore everyone else. Most everyone else is just trying to do the same. But I still don’t do classes…I’d love to try one, but I’m too unco, and I hate people in groups…soooo…yeah…lol
This is the song I’m too scared to write
But some of you may need it tonight
All that you were, heart made of glass
Fragile little thing that shattered too fast
Tried to pick the pieces up, up, up
And that’s the way you first got cut, cut, cut
Devil drew you in, you didn’t let it show
Didn’t want the others to ever have to know
That you were getting hooked on up, up, up
And all you had to do was cut, cut, cut
You carved a special place for your pain
So it came back to hurt you every night
You closed your eyes and wished it all away
Until you disappeared under the knife
You know the deal, no one gives a damn
Just another needy kid, sob story in hand
Keep your secrets covered up, up, up
We don’t need another cut, cut, cut
But you couldn’t hide, a heart made of glass
You pulled yourself together with all the strength you had
You were finally fed up, up, up
Finally had to scream enough-nough-nough
You carved a special place for your pain
So it came back to hurt you every night
You closed your eyes and wished it all away
Until you disappeared under the knife
Listen, I know it’s simplified from the other side
It’s easy to gloss over all the messy reasons why
And it’s easy to forget where you’ve been
I guess that’s what the scars are for, huh?
When we were fifteen, we wouldn’t dare let that shit be seen
But now it seems mutilation’s gone mainstream
I see you at my shows, scarred up from head to toe
Like there’s no point even trying not to let it show
Cause we all know, emo kids like to hurt themselves
Too many feelings, and not enough self control
And I mean does this mess with any of the rest of ya?
It’s an epidemic and we’re cool with it don’t question it
But it bothers me, our scars are currency by which we’re measured
Like let the record show who let it slip and who held it together
Cutters and burners and honorable mentions
Posers who still cut themselves up for the attention
I don’t care your intentions, I just want you to know
My self-hatred never took me where I wanted to go
At the end of the day, you know I still had to face
That I can pick at the pain, but I can’t cut it away
And you know what else I can’t do, is give you ten good reasons not to
I’ve racked my brain for clever sayings of all the things you ought to do
But you know I think if there was something I could say
They’d have thrown it on a brochure and sent you on your way
So I’ll keep doing what I always do
Drag my heart to the piano and make it sing for you
I’ll keep doing what I always do
Drag my heart to the piano and let it sing for you…
Drag my heart to the piano and let it sing for you
I love it 
thanks for posting. It’s awesome
You girls might like this to
Sending you strength Rory, you can do it!
I got this in the mail yesterday and I am so happy so thank you you again @sabje102 for making this for me
Aaah, you’re welcome! I love it when I can put a smile on somebody’s face 
And for me it feels like a kind of therapy
If anyone want to get a postcard, just send your adress to sabje102@gmail.com
It looks amazing! Great work!!!
Just mail me your adress and I’ll sent you one!
