We’ll have a little mini soldier!!! 
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Congratulations!!! 
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Where did you come back from? I must have missed that part 
do tell
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Awww congratulations!!! Thats Great!! 
Yep. I missed that part completely. 
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I’m doing ok still working on controlling the thoughts but making a better effort then I was before. Trying to control nerves so much happening in the coming weeks
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I have a question for y’all… ever since my last attempt I have found myself day dreaming of not so great things… I don’t even realize I’m doing it. But then when I go to sleep I have very vivid dreams of my passing, which each time is different…have any of you had this happen?
I haven’t but it sounds awful 
I’m sure it’s happening because of the Day dreams day dream about something better if you can. Maybe about a crush or something. I always day dream I meet Jake Gyllenhaal and he falls in love with me 
some day lol 
I wish I knew how to help you 
are things going well for you? Day dreaming about not so nice things concerns me. Do you need to talk? How can I help?
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Yes it happens to me about my pass and i try to wake up in the middle of it but i can . I have to see everything happening to me allover again. But it get a little better . Sometimes it helps by looking at some right before u sleep and u dreams about them
Its strange to see yourself die at least 4 different ways… even when I walk to or from work I can see myself getting hit by a car in the cross walk…or someone following me… I know I sound crazy but again here is the only place I feel safe enough to speak about these things
And those thoughts are your dreams or day dreams?
Both, which makes it so much stranger
I guess the day dreaming could be due to depression🤔 when I’m really depressed I think of how I should end it but it’s not nessisary day dreams just thoughts. Is your depression heavier than usual?
Yes it has been, since this summer. But recently I have been getting my migraines and sharp body pains which usually have to do with my anxiety and depression
Usually anxiety is triggered by something? What has been causing you stress? Anything with your job or something? If I had to guess I would think those two are what’s causing it I’m seriously concerned about you having these thoughts and dreams. You matter so don’t do anything weird. Don’t let it swallow you, okay? You need something to distract your mind away from thinking about the depression.
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Work has been Working me like crazy and not thinking about how hard it is on me. I’ve had ups and downs this summer chris’ suicide think was what started to break the damn. … and Chester just broke it. I had looked to them knowing they both dealt with a lot of darkness and were doing good. And when they lost their battle I just felt lost
It would break anyone down. You have lost and been through a lot. It is a lot for someone to deal with on their own. Would cutting down your hours or taking a few extra days off help? Working so much can help distract our minds sometimes but it also can wear you down mentally and physically. You need something to brighten you up and think about something different. I know for people like us with depression it’s just a temporary fix but that short bit of time that’s free of bad thoughts is always worth it. We gotta make you smile and no fake smiles what kind of fun things do you like to do? What brings you joy?
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Music all kinds of Music! I even use to paint , I miss that… lately I’ve been. Too worn out to do anything😞 but I have the rest of a 16hr shift today and another one tomorrow. Then I’m off one day and have to work Sunday evening. I love being outside I use to love sitting out on the balcony and watching the sky change…my house now doesn’t have that😔
I am gonna go to a music festival Saturday called fallball . Hopefully that will help a bit
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16 hour shift? That’s crazy! Can you take some time off or cut back your hours a little bit? No wonder why you are so worn out! Music can be a wonderful source for happiness . Painting is also an amazing way to express yourself why not go to a park or some place public and paint? Some place where you can watch the sky change . I hope you have a lot of fun at the fallball . Put some some music on if you can if you start having bad day dreams. Maybe that could help your problem.
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Ya this week alone I have 4/ 16hr shift with one 10hr in between. I wish I could cut them but my household has been. Slacking in the bill paying latley. So I have needed to pick up the slack. And I notice that both work and family seem to enjoy taking advantage of that 
How are you getting enough sleep in between shifts?! You poor dear that’s awful. Have you talked to your fiancé and told him how you feel about him taking advantage of you having to pick up the slack? He has to help take some of that stress away. I’m not surprised a work place would take advantage of you taking so many hours but your fiancé should pick up something to help you out. No wonder your anxiety and depression is getting to you. Express it to your fiancé. He needs to know how you feel
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