Sadly we have yet to live under the same roof. My household consists of my oldest nephew , my mother and my son. I had to move in with them to get away from my son’s abusive father. But I moved in under the impression that us 3 adults would split everything evenly! A yr into it my mother stopped assisting more and more until now somehow I find myself giving her money instead. As for my nephew, he was doing good helping me pickup the slack for my mother but now he is continuously short handing me too!
As for my fiancee I’m trying to figure out what he really wants… I want a family, i want to give my son a brother or sister before he is grown.i want him to have the family life we never got to experience… yet I don’t see the same drive in my fiancee. We talk and he says how nice it would be, but does nothing to get us closer to that dream
I’m so sorry to hear all of that, to having both your mother and nephew short handing you. That’s awful, hopefully you will have the family experience you have always dreamed of.
As a side note, I am now friends with you on Facebook and have added you onto my Linkin Park group. Feel free to check it out. It’s a place where you won’t feel alone and share out your feelings, everyone will listen to you. 
Sending you hugs and kisses, 
@danni1317 That dream you’re having, maybe it’s just your mind just trying to scare you away from your depression and thoughts. Is it scary when you wake up? Maybe you’re thinking about it too much so it’s comming to you in the night. You have to think more of positive things, I know it’s hard, but you need to constantly keep “reprogramming” your mind. It will get better, you’ll see.
I’m so sorry for your family, hope it’ll get better. And your fiancee too, maybe he just needs time. It’s a lot of responsibility to take, a woman, child, future life. One does not decide over night, just give him time. I’m sure he loves you.
Sending big hugs 
Your wish came true CONGRATULATIONS 
I will check it out ! I’m hoping next week will bring some kind of peace 
I want to think that he just needs time, but honestly we have been together on and off for over 6 years… he’s still awkward with my son, and it still feels like we are a new relationship ( not the honeymoon feeling) he comes to my house ,yet I have never stayed at his… he still keeps his life quite separate from ours, which I try not to focus on but sometimes I can’t help it😔 especially times like this I wonder if he isn’t sticking around more because he promised my brother he would take care of me…
Sometimes such doubts become to poison your mind over time, especially when many such things are around you. You have to believe he loves you and wants to be with you, otherwise he’d be long gone 
I believe it
Especially because he didn’t get scared when you talked about your suicidal thoughts, he didn’t run away, I think he wants to be with you
I hope you’ll be okay
I know😔 but that’s what worries me, when that poison seems in its so hard to think straight . I dnt want to fall back where I was last month. I’m just trying to take it one moment at a time
Hi!
I am sure of one thing: You are not the same person that you used to be the last month. You are a strong woman now!
Yeah, the time can be cruel and hard, but you are more stronger than before. Remember you have the control! I won’t lie to you, lately I feel down and dominated by my own thoughts. But I have the control on them and I know I can count on you all.
Keep working hard and smile many times as you can, maybe it won’t solve your problem, but it will make you feel better. I’m telling you for personal experience.
Yeah!So true!never alone! stay strong my brother!
Agreed with all @ironsoldier16 wrote!
Even if you feel sad inside try to smile! @danni1317 
if you can find the strenght to smile, the world around you would appear with a different light… 
So true words @ironsoldier16!
And yes, you’re right, we’re here with you. For each other. Hope you’ll get better. Be strong 
and don’t forget to smile Both of you
I what to ask u guy’s am question . I had a bad nightmare of the person who hurt me years ago i seen myself and i try to help myself get away form hem but i couldn’t get away form hem. I don’t understand why i have this nightmare 2 night in a roll i fear that that something bad going to happen .
I’ve had that before. It’s rare for me but I’ve had nightmares of the guy the hurt me. When I wake up I’m scared and feel so freaked out. But I will not let that asshole have any power over me! I think about what he did to me every day and I’ll be damned if I let him have control over me. You just remember that. Yes whatever that person did may stick in your head every day or whenever but don’t let that person take over how you feel. A nightmare is a nightmare but he won’t hurt you anymore and he doesn’t get to control how you feel. Your brain was just playing tricks on you. You can get through this 
. You are in control
I have similar dreams of someone’s hunting me but they usually don’t include any specific people from my life. But I have very vivid dreams about someone or something hunting me. And they also repeat every now and then. In the dream, I usually try to run but my legs refuse to comply and all I’m able to do is walk slowly like a zombie. And when they hunt me and get closer, I try to scream, but nothing comes out of my mouth other than some whispers or slight hoarse voice. I also get dreams of being killed by an atomic bomb, so horrible and vivid! Thank God I don’t dream about spiders!!! 
It happens, it does not mean anything. Just your mind trying to wipe something out or deal with things you’ve been through the day, dealing with your deep or old fears. No worries, the night is just like a reset. In the night they hunt you but in the day you fight I think it’s a way for your mind to heal, although it might not feel like that when you wake up. If somehow forces you to face that thing/people up and when you wake up, you’ll see that nothing happened so it’s not so dangerous or fearsome as you thought it was.
Thanks for your kindness. I need to make sure is not just me that have these nightmare . I won’t let them get to me but it hard to because the person who hurt me was family my aunt on my mom side of the family husband that hurt me. So that way i don’t trust my family as much.
Again not alone, my brother in law was who hurt me for years as a child. Its hard to be in the same room with that monster. But i love my Godson and my nephews with all my heart and i find different ways to cope each time
Each day it started to get a little better. Now that i got support of my lp family. And I’m glad im not alone in this world. It feel good to support.
Did u have fun. It looks like so much fun.
Yes I did, it was nice to have music blasting and just singing out:blue_heart: