Your words are just so honest Catia, thanx for your trust. I guess that these songs- in their deepness are triggerering our stucked and frozen emotiones we kept down since this unbelivable incident that came from out of nowhere- we kept them down cause they have potential to kill us- doing this makes us overcome and step on- to handle our normal lifes …
Now with these songs- which are showing and make us feel the pure and raw feels of Mike - the pain- the anger- the dissapointment- the madnesses (… to be continued ) that the incident caused. it’s his way of letting his pressure and weakness and whatever more go- and what happens now is that his music triggers our frozen feels- and - and that’s the biggest gift in it: make them flow again- and with each tear it can flow out… and make the pain maybe a bit less… I felt the same - cried and laughed same time - thinking: now I finally lost my mind- but same time feeling sooo happy about the universal sign he set with these shares: we step on- it’s painful but a very strong sign - that makes me feel right the way I feel and him on twitter then was like: we are connected and united - forever 
Anyway from my point of you, after hearing Mike’s words at the end of the song and reading well the lyric…I think he’s talking about Chester beginning with LP when he was addicted… then he “broke the habit”, but… but… 
aaanywhoo…I hadn’t noticed it but I suppose he might’ve done it purposefully maybe, never thought to ask but doubt he uses anything(seems out of character for Mike)
