Hey, what’s up? October Evans here. I wanted to share with you all some of my works that I’ve done over the years in previous bands/side projects (I’ve been in a total of 7 bands and only one rap group), and I figured I also would share some demos/lyrics here and there from time to time as a “unofficial” exclusive behind-the-scenes content-sharing incentive for all of y’all to enjoy in the hopes of building a stronger, more committed and loyal fanbase all around the world.
In the coming months and years ahead (assuming the LPU forums will be around for a long time), I will be posting behind-the-scenes content, lyrics, demos and original versions of my music, and from time to time, I’ll share links. Earlier I posted a song in The Barracks, which you can all check out over there and send constructive critiques to that particular song, because I felt it was good, but not perfect yet, and needed some input from y’all to help me construct the lyrics in a better way before I take it to record the song for it (instrumental tracks, vocals and all) soon, so in the meantime, I’ll go ahead and post a sneak peek of one of the songs that’s yet to be released on a upcoming album, and it’s called “Decide to Live”, which is about drug/alcohol addiction and recovery mostly, and it might be triggering for some of you, so a heads up/content warning just in case.
Enjoy the lyrics, and feel free to check out my work a little further by visiting my official website that I will link below. And yes, this will be the only place I’ll post everything here in one topic thread, rather than in multiple posts, so that y’all can easily track it and reply here rather than looking for a million posts to find something LOL. Additional note: I am not a Christian or subscribe to any religion - I’m spiritual, so please don’t take the lyrics about to be displayed below as some sort of “Christian Rock” drug/alcohol recovery bullshit anthem song, because it’s not. I really hate organized religion - no offense. Oh, and I’m a trans/genderqueer musician so my pronouns are she/her/they/them - nice to meet y’all!
“Decide to Live”
Lyrics written by October Rain Evans
Music by October Rain Evans, Vanessa Lacey, Dylan Williams, Lily Jane Anderson and Shawn Anderson
Soon to be Mixed, Edited, Produced and Recorded at Chiaroscuro Music Studios in Vermont
Trans Mad Genius Lyrics/sadistsateme.songwriting/October Evans Music [BMI/ASCAP]
© ℗ 2019 October Evans, Uprising Music Collective. All Rights Reserved.
Even if this is your rock bottom
Even if this is your fall from grace
Even if this sounds like a lonely anthem
Even if there’s tears rolling down your face
Remember that I was just like you
Fucked up and lost in all that we live through
Trapped in the past until there’s a breaking point
There’s a better way to live without leaving this world
So decide to live
Learn a new way to forgive
Let go of pain tearing you down
Decide to live
Don’t let go of the heart you give
Breathe without toxic people bringing you down
It’s time to decide to live or fade away
I’ve been drunk and addicted
I’ve been bleeding and broken
I’ve ran away from home and nearly died
There were dark days when I didn’t feel alive
I’ve done it all and some mistakes I made
Don’t let this be the bed you made
Don’t repeat the history that I’ve written
There’s a new way to be alright without the demons
Overdose and split from reality
Awaken to find your true family
Fall apart and rise up again
You’ve been face to face with the Darkness
Show me that smile you used to wear
Don’t give in to your Post Traumatic nightmares
Learn to be okay even if you’re not okay
Every day is ever-changing so stay
It won’t always be like this
It won’t always be like this
Addictions we no longer need
Vices that’s haunted you and me
We’re in the same shoes we’ve been walking in
I was just like you cutting into the skin I used to bleed my life away
So this is it: decide to live or fall away!!!
DECIDE TO LIVE OR FADE AWAY! [x4]
This is our rock bottom
This is our lonely anthem
This is what we’ve been through
This is what life is all about
This is what we face that we can live without
I hope this song will help you
I’ve been where you’ve been, alone and dying
You can decide to live if you choose to breathe again…
P.S., a note about this particular song - this was inspired by a quote that I heard from Amelia Shepherd (a character on the popular TV show called Grey’s Anatomy) and eventually that one particular line she said on a episode while trying to save a teenager who overdosed during that mass opioid overdose crisis they had in said episode (this happened in Season 15 this year - highly recommend that you watch it), and that’s when I came up with the lyrics for this song - it’s currently in the demo stages of the songwriting/recording process as we’re playing around with some instrumental ideas we were recording rough takes on in the last 3 months, and it’s nearly coming together.
Anyways, as promised, y’all can support my life’s works as a trans/genderqueer musician by visiting my official website (just click here to be taken to my website) - it also has various links of my work on the website, such as my Spotify artist page, my iTunes/Apple Music artist page, my Patreon and Bandcamp fanclub platforms, and various social media platforms that I’m on as well - you can click on each link on said website by visiting the colorful social media icons on the intro page of said website, and also, you’re welcome to enter the website by going to the “Enter Site” button of that page and view my blog, listen to more of my music, watch my videos, subscribe to the official mailing list and more features you can explore! I’ll eventually be starting a similar message forum page like what y’all have got going on here on the LPU Barracks forum for the website, so that y’all can chat and do similar cool shit like this there at some point soon.