@framos1792 definitely has some good advice! Better than I could have come up with💙 I’m in my 30’s and I feel more lost than before. I wasn’t very sheltered in fact I was sort of just left to do whatever. I could see how I fell into such a dangerous and violent relationship. I had no one to show me what was right or wrong, I just went for the first person that showed me affection. The first few months should have been a warning but no one told me his behavior was wrong. I was kept from family and friends, he controlled everything including my money and my phone. I never learned how to drive because he made sure to drive where ever we had to go. I was held captive for years, I thought after I had my son things may calm down, but they only got worse. It was shortly after he broke my nose that I finally got away! He still came after me but I stood my ground , after a few more injuries I managed to get my freedom. Maybe if I had some one to show me what was right and wrong, I could have avoided alot of pain… don’t get me wrong I love my son and because of him I wouldn’t change a thing💙
Very nicely written, couldn’t have said it better @framos1792, you are such a good advisor 
@limkinpark1999fan you should listen to him
That sounds horrible, I hope he’s not showing up anymore! My sister was also beaten in her marriage by her husband. In the end she ran from him and started a divorce trial, where he could end up in prison, if she’d told the truth. But she didn’t stand up for herself because the kids told her they don’t want her father to be in prison. She also was afraid of him, because she thought he has a lot of contacts and can cause her problems in the future.
With this back-up step, she lost everything in the end. Her ex has her kids now. What’s bad is, that he’s a good manipulator. All those years he lies to them that it’s her fault, that she is bad for leaving the family and that she never loved them, they don’t know anything! The worst thing is, that even though the court ordered that he has to allow her to meet the children regularly, he blocks all calls and contacts, so she didn’t see her kids for years and suffers constantly.
It is hard to stand up for yourself in those kinds of situations, where you fear for the life of youself and your children. But you did the right thing, which only proves you are strong and determined.
I lucked out, he never signed my son’s birth certificate. So by law my son is mine and mine alone, unless he wants to go thru the trouble of DNA tests. Which he doesn’t care for, sadly he was never interested in our child…however he had this unhealthy obsession with me. He never loved me but owning me is what made him happy. He still pops up every now and then, which still makes my stomach turn. I use to have nightmares of him taking me and killing me. I still fear this but he is very careful to stay under the radar. So i still have to watch my back
That I believe you, it must be hard.
My sister is just like that, she still fears him, thouh I feel she is more independent and confident than ever before. Being able to take control of your own life and to care of a child (or children) is a hard task itself and it makes you stronger every day. I think that one is never able to get rid of the fear, but maybe it’s a good thing, makes your mind more awake and watchful. I think fear is normal and it’s never a bad thing.
“You can’t be afraid of people willing to hurt you, cause if you fear life, then you will never live”
~Chester Bennington
Nice quote for you
Beautiful quote… 
Thank you for that, this quote is one that hits very close to home.
and thank you for the kind words. Unfortunately my family seems to think I could be a better mother. I’ve constantly been told I haven’t done enough or been there enough for my son. Yet as painful as these remarks are i try to tell myself they have never been in my shoes, they all are married and had that partnership to raise the children together… unlike myself having to figure things out on my own and dreading having to ask for help, knowing that it would be thrown back in my face later. The wounds from them are still feel and ever fresh… Which in turns seems to fuel the demons I already fight daily
Every grandparent does that to the mother of their grandchildren, don’t let it get under your skin. They have a certain idea about how they raised their children and they try to make you like them, but these are different times, different situations, different people, different child, they can’t possibly understand nor have the right to criticise.
Don’t let anybody tell you what kind of mother you are and should be and how you should raise or care for your children. A mother knows best what’s good for their children and what they need. That does not mean you should just stop at where you are, you should always try to be as good as you can. But according to what your child needs, not according to what others think it needs. You know best and I’m sure you’re doing your best to be the best mother
You really have some excellent advice p, I recommend you to anyone who needs help! I couldn’t have put it better myself, 
I slipped up😕 not proud of myself… I had a harder time this year with my brothers anniversary then I was prepared for. I think i hit low enough to sort of scare me. I’m trying to keep busy and find things to help me thru this, I do want to say that it feels amazing to know that someone did think of me😌 it sounds silly but I can go silent for weeks and no one notices…
Don’t you try to speak loud in case of shup up yourself? I mean, is time that you say what you want without matter what will happen. If standing in silence didn’t work at all Why don’t you change your throughts and take out all you have inside.
I was passing the same the lasts weeks and until I took out all this I began to feel better. Try it
Well see earlier in the week I found another tribute for Chester it’s actually close enough where I could go! I went to mention it to my fiance and he sort of rolled his eyes and said “damn let Chester rest in peace already!!” That crushed me, I had already reserved our tickets 
Don’t leave that it crushed you. If you want to go, then do it. I want to see one day smiling and being happy. It’s your life! You need to meet people like you. If he doesn’t want to come with you, go just you because you need it, it’s not a whim, it’s something you have to do by your life. That’s how I see it. You will know what is the correct.
Agreed with @ironsoldier16 … if you feel to go there, you have to… maybe meet people who think of Chester like you do may help you to face up your depression and fears… also if your fiancee doesn’t want to go, I think is better not to force him and respect his opinion… not everybody feels the same emotions or understand our feelings completely… this is my opinion… you have the choice… 
So I was able to get tickets for the Hollywood show:blue_heart:
I had wanted to take my son but could only get one for me and my fiancee. Maybe it’s better not taking my son, i know I’ll be pretty emotional…but at least I’ll be able to heal! I can only imagine how amazing and loving that vibe will be!!
Hey! That’s awesome! I’m glad you made it 
I’m working stuff out still but will be there too 
It’ll be great for you and everyone for that matter
Are any of you guys gonna make it out to the concert??? @ironsoldier16 @limkinpark1999fan
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I can’t, I live in Guatemala. I’d love go, but I can’t.
Will you go? I hope that you spend a great time there
do you go? And