I often get replies here that I’m so strong… Actually, I’m not. I’m just good at trying to help people feel better and help people out of the dark, based on my own experiences…
Meanwhile my own mind and body are becoming a mess of which I’m not likely to escape.
But I’m not going anywhere.
At times, and this is such time, I kind of eager to be freed of all of it and then there seems only one way… But as said, I’m not going anywhere… 
OT
Son Lux - The Fool You Need (Enough of Me)
We love you just as you are! 
Thanks
Thing is, I don’t always feel that way about myself…
Yeah… got you… but we’re here with you… 
Hi, I can perfectly rely on your words. I got pulmonary disease and keep helping others. Would be I interesting to know more about your story. Usually I don’t tell people about this side of me.
I listen shuffle of
LP and at the moment it’s
guilty all the same
Ah well… there must be a little short in your system for that to happen then 
in that case you’ll just have to trust your friends here, @lpfan61, @anna834, @linkinisa and myself and everybody else in here who does love you just how you are 
No lie bro, it’s a little bump in the day coming in here and seeing you active with us! It was very noticeable when you joined a while back it was like new life into the place so I can honestly encourage you to give yourself the credit you deserve 
I’m another one of those people that stays quiet about their own issues for the most part but have dealt with something slight in regards to autoimmune diseases, I never got “fully diagnosed” but they knew something was up with my joints from back pain, plantar fasciitis and stuff like that occurring at similar times-it never got beyond me having to constantly be on ibuprofen and sleeping upright every night so I can’t fully relate but in the sense that you get irritated by being held back by it I can feel you…
it’s a grind I know but think about it this way-others couldn’t live the life you do… aka in your position others would fold so you oughta give yourself your due credit knowing you ARE in fact a very strong individual
listening to this 
Great words and so true! Thank you @framos1792
And also this one! Same feeling here.
Thank you also @Fravaco @framos1792 @linkinisa for your honesty, these alone makes you great and strong people.
I always feel bad in comparison. Luckily I’m healthy as a horse. As far as you can be in your forties. And I am nevertheless fighting to stay alive. Granted, I’m now on the winning side. But I always have to keep it up and be aware that something like that never goes away, always lurks in dark corners.
So thankful for all of you and this place.
Thank you LINKIN PARK!!!
@lpfan61 special for always being there!
@birdy1989 a little tag for you to this conversation on this unexpected please. 
on topic
Listen to all your recommendations, just the YouTube ones. Love the diversity! The only annoying thing is, that after a time they start playing again all at the same time. I jump out of my pants with that noise and don’t know how to stop it fast.
You’re not alone man. Exactly what you described here, me, and I’m sure others here as well, know these feelings very well. The emptiness we all feel inside, the pain that lets us know we’re still here, that we still have to fight each day as if it is our very last.
With that being said though, of course we all know that the pain is only temporary and won’t last forever. There are also the things in life (even if they are little) that help us to go along each day, and make us want to continue on each day. If you don’t have very many of these things, maybe it’s time to start finding more positivity and add those things to your life too. Remember, our demons can try to hold us, but in the end it’s our choice if we let them win, or if we continue to fight against them.
New demo from OML 
Can’t believe we got some new LP stuff 
I loooove it!!! But it made me miss that phase of anticipating oml release 
the clues they were dropping… I miss @dr_64 and @Im_Normal and especially @lupedhs on that thread 
Great song! Glad I was able to listen to it at least once before it was removed from youtube! Sad because I was going to look it up again this morning but found it removed. and can’t find it anywhere, hopefully one day it’ll be released
I’ll either be flying up high
or i’ll be swimming within the deep
how they do that “walk the earth”
my heart yet denies to learn!
From love to silence
from a kiss to a goodbye
from the many towards nothing
always there, you and me!
I always look for you in small
and bigger streets
but i can’t do the low fly-by
i have wings on my shoulders!
I’ll either be flying up high
or i’ll swim within the deep
how they do that “walk the earth”
my heart yet denies to learn!
hold my hand high or let me go
from the water of love,
who wants to drinks sips?
Georgia Ntakaki “the heart denies to learn”
Thank you for tagging me:pray:t2:
I never believed I’m a strong person, untill people kept telling me I was. With exactly this as an argument:
Nicely said @framos1792 
So @Fravaco I do too think you are strong. And I’m very happy to have you with us in the forums I do to get strength from helping other people. Tho at this point I need to help myself first, I’m not doing so well atm. But as soon as I get better, I want to help others too again. I want to help now, but how good of a help am I when I’m not even taking good care of myself? I need to get rid of the depression first, then I can focus on helping others again I’ll get there, it just takes time. Untill then: don’t stop what you are doing and don’t ever leave us:kissing_heart:
@lpfan61 once again you are the ray of sunshine on the forums, always there to see the good in people I love you, don’t ever stop
@anna834 thanks again for tagging me, you are an amazing friend
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I’m so sorry to hear… sending you lots of strenght and hugs! 
Awwwwww!!! Thank you!! love you too!
Just waited for @lpfan61 post, to hang me on it 
Always find her words so much better than my own.
So I join with @lpfan61 completely
Awwwwww!!! Thank you dear!! I love you!!
Beautiful lyrics. Music sounds good as well, really traditional folk right?
The right mindset! Stay strong and keep telling this yourself as well
Can’t here now