Agree! It was a year so full of emotions- mixed up and busy my side too- looking so forward for the holidays! I hope you have holidays too? You deserve it man, and I wish days full of love and inspiration for you! Stay strong eagle Andi 
And enjoy 
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I think between Christmas and New Year’s, I’ll only have to work two days. Unless there’s overtime involved, and there usually is.
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Keeping my 
!! Have a good time my friend and take care! 
You too!
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@intheend - I don’t know whether to feel humbled or ecstatic about this gift! I just can’t wait to receive them - I’m presuming they’ll be alive…cos it’d be boring if they were all dead.
@zinler - so relieved to hear you are still here with us. That [spoiler]asshole[/spoiler] voice inside your head that’s bringing you down - keep fighting it. That pain that threatens to break you - smash it. Don’t feed the devil no matter how tempting. Scream with Chester. Write to us. Take your time. You’ll find a way through this - you just need to give yourself a chance…cos even dark [spoiler]shitty[/spoiler] tunnels have a light at the end. 
I am so dang tired I think my brain is going to turn into a mushball of sludge. I’m currently glitching in front of the tv/laptop…
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@zinler hey! I know it is a hard situation for you… but we are here… for everybody who need it… it is not the best way… because we can’t look at each other… but not less. This is the only way to communicate each other… as I told you, we wish you the best. Don’t let your demons win…and focus in the little things life give you. As we all are far, our mission is listen and support. Stay strong friend! 
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Working together with my new boss and we listening Linkin Park 
Watching star wars. Well almost
Just got my Law mock results back. I’ve got a B! 5 marks off an A
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Eating lunch at work right now
Better keep this promise to us!
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Going home… stuck in traffic.
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Exactly haha so you may have to live over 100 to get us all over there okay? Okay hehe
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Dear @rorybourdon we care for you too!! I like you as a kind clever sweet person and want you to know that you’re not alone as well…never… always thinking of you! 
also now you can’t see it but there’s a day when the sun will shine bright to your side…so stay strong my dear friend to see that moment! 
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Hey @zinler… I wanted to answer to your first message but I didn’t really know what to say to help you.
But know I have something to say, just to try to help.
I know you already know this, but I’m going to repeat it anyway : you’re loved, you’re needed and you matter. I know those words may seem empty now, but they aren’t.
I’ve never been in depression myself. I’ve never had suicidal thoughs. But know what it feels like to be so powerless next to someone. And I know how you feel when someone you love dies by suicide. I feel that’s what Mike tried to say in “Looking for an answer”. Because that’s what you’re doing. You’re looking for an answer that you will never find anymore.
I’m telling you this because I saw on the forum that you had a little girl. And I know every word I can say won’t heal you now, I now I can’t take all the pain away in a message, I know depression is hard to fight, and that people who commit suicide aren’t seeking attention, but instead trying to get help.
And I want to help you but I don’t know how to do it.
So I’m just going tell you something that you may already do : every time you feel like you need to end everything, think about your daughter. Always remember, even if she tells you she hates you, she doesn’t. She won’t be better without her father. She won’t be happier. She needs you, because she loves you like you love her.
I can’t even imagine how deep must be your despair for you trying to hang yourself… I’ll never blame you for thinking such things. You’re not having depression on purpose. I know that if you think about it, it’s because you feel that’s the solution.
But suicide is never the solution.
Even in the darkest times, suicide is never the solution.
Depression is really destructive, but you can overcome it. You’re stronger than the pain. You’re stronger than the wounds. You’re stronger than the tears. You’re stronger than the fear.
You will overcome depression. With your psychologist’s help, with our help, with the help of the people you love.
And when your daughter will be 18, you’ll look in her eyes and you will be able to say “I’ve done it. I won. I won’t die until life decides my time has come”.
It so fortunate you didn’t make it the other day. Everyone is needed here to make the world turn ; and you are needed to.
Whenever despression strikes, you can come to us and take everything out of you. We 'll be here to listen. We’ll be here to understand, other way better than me. We’ll be here to care. Always.
I’m not going to tell you to stay strong because sometimes we don’t want to stay strong. I’m going to tell you to stay here, to breath, and to remember that as long as you’re breathing, you’re fighting, and you’re winning. Every breath you take is a success ; and at the end, you’ll be the one to tear down the another you inside of your head. Not the opposite.
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Music is such a powerful tool. I always find myself coming back to this DVD.
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Shinedown is awesome!
Feeding my cats, and my fish, geting my coffee pot set for tomorrow morning then make a Snack.
Been feeling under the weather for a few days now. I need to sleep as much as I can tonight. Hard weeks ahead. Off to bed!
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Rough couple of weeks trying to hold it together and not lose my mind.
It’s been very hard.
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