No problem
This is pretty what I went through during those years as well! Around 2015 I also had a sort of wake up moment where I started to see things differently. I explored many topics and took a look at ‘alternative’ news sources. It helped me gain a better understanding of this world (I think 
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And 2017 was definitely a hard year. Here’s to a better year!
2017 was the year I stopped being what people wanted me to be and the year I found myself but It was one of the hardest years of my life @rickvanmeijel so to A better 2018
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Hey Woco21 I also have anxiety attacks myself. Sometimes I think I am losing my mind. And I just wanna be left alone. I can relate to alot that you say . And I find I am getting to know you this way I am glad you feel you can tell me personal things… I hope 21018 will be better for both of us. your friend kathy
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Hey Kathy, well all the lyrics I write come from either questions I myself don’t know or personal experiences. Years back, I was on Xanax, Prozac, you name it, as my anxiety started to kick in and my depression coming on even harder on me.
I started “waking up” so to speak back in 2013. Questioning myself, my existence and such. To the point I reached insanity. To the point everything I see seems to be blind to the common eye. I became pretty analytical those following years. To the point I started searching controversial topics and such.
All in all, 2015-2016, I started to really make great steps for myself as I was calm, understanding and accepted myself as I am. I started meditating more, and well I want to get back to that point.
2017, was just a harsh year overall for me. Feels like everything I worked for was just thrown out the window. But this year I want to get back on my feet and make the best form of me stick out once again.
I write the songs long as I feel I can fit many things in there. But can also sway people into thinking about multiple topics that connect, and influence in such a way. I am glad you enjoy my voice, thank you for that. It is a great asset I have.
I also have a VERY high IQ. So I tend to be a very picky person when it comes to understanding lyrics and such. Intelligent people tend to be susceptible to mental illness, this seems to be a fact.
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I am just curious where all the ideas come from. Cause all this writing is unique. And they are very long. I also love your voice.
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Hey Kathy,
Anxiety attacks can be a bitch, I completely understand where you are coming from. But, its the stress of daily life, the worries to pay your bills, to keep your health good, and many other things that factor in causing this anxiety. I “rarely” have anxiety attacks nowadays. But when I do, I relax, concentrate and tell my mind that I am fine and this will pass. The cold flushing through your body is a cruel thing to feel, but relax, there is always hope and you can make yourself better. Anyone suffering from this needs to reprogram their mind, to let go of those hassles, because we can all solve our internal problems if we accept them and let them go.
@rickvanmeijel and @turners34, you guys are still young, younger than me for sure lol. There are so many rabbit holes in life that most people wouldn’t understand, beginning with purpose, diet, mentality, etc. Nowadays, most people are swayed to follow societal purpose, eat food that poisons you little by little, (Just look at all the crap they use to make your favorite snack) Be scared to even walk out of your house, because the streets are “filled” with bad people. Trust me, I see it A LOT in New York, people afraid of each other, moving to another seat on the Metro. Slowly but surely, the human being is being conditioned to be disconnected from being a human! I’ve been asked by a couple of people to write an extensive book on all my research. I may do that this year if I get the chance.
Just don’t always be swayed to beLIEve everything Media and other important figures tell you. Question much things. If you are in bad health, RESEARCH! there are ALWAYS alternative methods to heal yourself with then pumping yourself with the “good pharmaceuticals” they tell you works wonders, even though they still have nasty side effects! Most of those companies just care for one thing: $$$$
I am an example of it. I was overweight, had shitty self-confidence. Couple of years later, I am EXTREMELY healthy, and lost about 40lbs, though I gained some because my family worried.
There is SO MUCH I can say, but I have to keep it at minimal. I want to help you guys question more, so you can find answers. I just want you guys (and myself) to have a better year, and make it the best possible.
I will let you know something I found “odd”. Concerning the One More Light (Album), Chester is only credited on 2 songs (Heavy & Halfway Right) on LP’s last album. Which is odd for a lead singer, anyone think so?
I agree with most things that you mentioned here and I’ll be sure to stay healthy. Physically and mentally. In the meantime, keep on creating awesome lyrics / songs 
That’s because Mike and Brad wrote most of it with guest writers. And Mike has always been the main writer. He and Brad wrote most of THP as well, while Chester was touring with Stone Temple Pilots.
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Yeah I know LP is basically Mike’s baby lol. Chester didn’t have much to do with the songwriting after ATS by the looks of it, which was confirmed by a fan who met with Chester and asked him. Chester’s work on after albums after ATS seem to slowly go down overtime.
But yeah, if you go deep down to the core on these topics, just be prepared to be astonished with some stuff. But after all of it is bliss, and you understand what you must do.
I will post today’s song momentarily. And thanks for the pump up words. I am actually planning on doing a soft rock style mixtape this year. Not sure when i will start but I have some unfinished lyrics to finish lol.
Song Name: The Biggest Stage (RH-)
The Biggest Stage is pretty straightforward and to the point, are we all just actors in the biggest stage of them all? “All Men and Women are merely players” - William Shakespeare (I used these words on another song!)
The Biggest Stage: https://ufile.io/p0xwt
Lyrics:
Why do you “act” the way you do?
Isn’t it your behavior, true?
Why call it act?
Explain that
A simple question that asks about our behavioural pattern
Are these patterns foreign like Saturn?
Or are they immediately addressed
From circumstances that you have been blessed
Or confined, to detest
It’s like, day by day
I see it, I hear it, in what people say
The drama up for display
Like if they’re getting a big fat pay
Hey
I could write an entire essay
But I’ll keep it simple, factors
That we all seem to be actors
In the biggest of stages, Earth against detractors
Factors included but not bound
Background
That may astound
Birth year
Biggest fear
Eventual career
Birth nation
Religious donation
Set dictation
Raised as a child to believe
That in life, everything is there to achieve
“Your special, don’t be naive”
Personality molded
As a child scolded
Because, right there and then, you’ve been blindfolded
Going by this routine
Nothing seems too obscene
Going along by what is thrown at you, 'til your eighteen
Ideas and likes
Even your dislikes
Shaped by an external force, yikes!
In the biggest stage
Flip the page
We’re all trapped in this cage
Animals trying to give meaning
To where the meaning needs cleaning
To which side are you leaning?
They tell you how to dress, what to do, how to be
Preparing you for the biggest of acts, don’t you see?
With influence of the absentee
What is absent you might ask?
Well, it’s not a hard task
Look at the mirror, take off the mask
Why do you “act” the way you do?
Isn’t it your behavior, true?
Why call it act?
Explain that
A simple question that asks about our behavioural pattern
Are these patterns foreign like Saturn?
I know one thing: that I know nothing
I’m serious, I’m not bluffing
Empty mind
Is of the healthy kind
From the beginning you’ve been taught, need a rewind?
Mind congested
With ideas that have been manifested
Advertisement requested?
Change the channel
Another program from the panel
But when will you dismantle?
Think, think, think
For yourselves, stop being in sync
With the brainwashing cocktail they make you drink
You are influenced by an outside source
It has no remorse
Because it controls you at full force
Manipulated
Under appreciated
Yet they have you sedated
Over and over again, with a mind you vacated
With the ego that they inflated
With a false sense of pride they indoctrinated
Flawless to the script
An eternal actor 'til the crypt
It’s your identity, that it stripped
In the biggest stage
Flip the page
We’re all trapped in this cage
Animals trying to give meaning
To where the meaning needs cleaning
To which side are you leaning?
They tell you how to dress, what to do, how to be
Preparing you for the biggest of acts, don’t you see?
With influence of the absentee
What is absent you might ask?
Well, it’s not a hard task
Look at the mirror, take off the mask
Take off the mask
Take off the mask
Take off the mask…
PS: Would you guys like me to post links to zipfiles for my mixtapes? Found it would be easier 
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Love it great work
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Song Name: The Game (From the Darkness to the Light …And Vice Versa)
The song is basically about how we should just live and let live. Find our own inner happiness and not let our demons consume us and “win” at the game so to speak. Because we don’t have tomorrow guaranteed.
The Game: https://ufile.io/74gtb
Lyrics:
We’ve twisted the definition
Of our primary mission
We’ve come to a complete submission
Headlock
To a point where we block
Outside thoughts and like a rock
Stationary and hard to the core
Because we don’t want to explore
The endless possibilities of this folklore
Generic automata that finds means
In decades of scenes
Molding their idea of the game since their teens
Life completely under control
From the original protocol
But if it satisfies them, who am I to call?
Out names
Who am I to put them under flames?
No life is ever perfect, under these life games
I guess I had to go through this phase
To learn from the very fabric of time and space
Was this in destiny that I had to chase?
We all decide
Whether we take a ride
Or if we abide
By the set way of living
Or if we start giving
Into a cruel exploration of answers that are unforgiving
This or that path?
What will be the aftermath?
I decided to take the route less explored
How much loss of sanity can I afford?
I see that I am bored
Of the same constant explanation
Uncommon denominator that needed variation
Ideas and beliefs that I took into consideration
Yeah, I’m playing with numbers
After many slumbers
I awoke to this road
Taking a step forward to decode
Life itself, am I scared of what it showed?
Very
But that was the cherry
On top of the ice cream, dairy
Life, you either destroy it
Or enjoy it
Which role will you play? Until you simply annoy it
But, this is the game
I know its name
It’s life, and my aim
Is to tame
To reclaim
My place, as the firing flame
With no fucking shame
To know that I overcame
The odds, and made her my dame
We’ve twisted the definition
Of our primary mission
We’ve come to a complete submission
Well, since I was a kid
I properly hid
And put a strong lid
On the way I feel
On whether this or that was real
On what was the deal?
Why did I feel so out of place?
Why couldn’t I just say fuck it and live in grace?
But the ideas burned so much like mace
My eyes, my eyes
They burn with the lies
It was the path I chose to avoid any ties
While other kids were playing
I was slaying
Grades, for nine months and praying
That I could be somebody someday
But it looked so distant and far away
To say
The least
But this beast
Truly awoke in me and creased
The ideas of bettering myself, as an adult
Was it really my fault?
That the occult
Started to insult
My thought pattern and as a result
Forced me to catapult
Through the extremities of mental sickness
With a certain quickness
That eventually showed me the thickness
Of the plot
It shot
Straight through my heart, and taught
Me to see the world from a different point of view
It all went on like this for a few
And like Baku
I was extracted of my natural resource
My mind, and of course
The journey ended in a divorce
From the ways that I used to endorse
At full force
And with no fucking remorse
But I guess it was unjust
I needed to see this way, a must
In order to properly adjust
But everyone has a rock in the road
I’m still here, and my sanity did not erode
I just let it be, and the river naturally flowed
This or that path?
What will be the aftermath?
Whatever you want it to be
Let people live and let them enjoy it freely
This was just the path, that was meant for me
But, this is the game
I know its name
It’s life, and my aim
Is to tame
To reclaim
My place, as the firing flame
With no fucking shame
To know that I overcame
The odds, and made her my dame
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Wonderful song
Hey @Woco21 Thanks for the understanding and I"ll take your advice and take a deep breath and just let it go… Take it day by day. You talk about This or that path? Well this one has led me to you. Keep on writing.
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I’ve decided to take @rickvanmeijel advice and do these once a week, since he mentioned it was information overload when I did them day by day. So… here we go again lol. Don’t know if there will be any more interest in my work by other peeps but…
This song is basically about questioning ones purpose. Why are we here? Which religion is right? Why all the confusion? (I’ve come up with my conclusion)
Song Name: Answers (???)
Lyrics:
What is right?
Can you please show me the light?
I need some guidance, show me your might
Am I doing everything to your delight?
Can you please show me the way?
I don’t know what else to say
This being on my mind all night and day
Falling under depression
Is becoming such an obsession
That I might hurt the ones close me in this mode of aggression
What must I do here to see progression?
Lost in my own mind
Because I’m different than many, one of a kind
Be in my shoes for once and see what you find
What is my reason to be?
What am I blindly missing, that I must see?
In this society, I’m treated like I’m a ghost
Invisible to most
Because I don’t go by what society says and feed the host
In awkward situations
I may get misinterpretations
Of certain declarations
Because I have a set of regulations
That makes me feel the need for certain expectations
Not found in the current generations
We all have a different perception
To try and reach perfection
When all we have to do is stare at the reflection
Then understand its all a misconception
Because, all I need is some motivation
For plenty of inspiration
To tell truth that leads to your mental obliteration
The deeper you go, the more answers you seek
Trust me this isn’t for you, if your mind is weak
Everyone will start looking at you like a freak
What is at stake?
Show me how to decipher the truth from the fake
What must I do to be truly awake?
Throughout life we all suffer
It doesn’t get any better but tougher
Trying our best in s society that eats us up, even rougher
Please, Give me an answer
Not knowing is destroying me like a cancer
So I can pick up my life an do right, an advancer
Why are we under such confusion?
There has to be more than this delusion
So advanced, but so far from a real conclusion
Just answer my question
Give me a suggestion
What is the great confession?
I’m stuck at a point of no return
How many more lessons are there to learn?
Its the truth that I really yearn
Religion
Which one is the right decision?
All I ask is to lead me to the correct vision
In this life I’ve learned that happiness only lasts so long
Its the outcome that makes one strong
That its alright to be wrong
I think I should make things square
Just thought I’d let you know that I just don’t care
About what others think, Its something I been meaning to share
For I long for an answer that is oh so rare
Longing for it until my last breath of air
Feeling I’ll never get an answer and be in despair
What is right?
Can you please show me the light?
I need some guidance, show me your might
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Nice to see you posting again
I like this song, but I think that the tone of your rapping could have been more aggressive. This might not be your personal style but it would’ve fitted the instrumental better.
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Yeah, I know. This song is from when I just began writing lol. This is late 2013, which is before I went on trying to find a vocal style.
I just left it like that, cuz what the heck? lol. Thanks for the advice though man. It can use an angrier tone if I ever rerecord lol… Maybe have to explore my inner Corey Taylor xD.
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Great ya back! 
- I missed you and I agree that once a week is a good rate, your lyrics are too deep to get everything in onetime reading, 
Will do my feedback soon- so far I can just say great work as always @Woco21 
Yeah, I understand where you guys are coming from. An entire mixtape is like an info overload lol. And thanks for supporting the thread guys, it means a lot to me to know that I can help other peeps out with knowledge and other things 
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Song Name: Clueless (From Sane Asylum)
This song features a speech made by Charlie Chaplin. It is one of the first times Mr. Chaplin spoke on TV. The whole song revolves around how so many “bad” things happen around us, in front of our faces, but yet, we all fall back asleep as it doesn’t affect us. A little hint also of not being self-accepting of oneself (Surgery), and yes, I mentioned Obama is a tyrant because he has sent to do the most drone strikes than any other US president. Ironically, this man won a Nobel “Peace” Prize (lol), its all for show people. There is so much that is wrong in these times that it has lead to confusion among people. Having people fighting each other over memes “they” established. Ask yourself “who” set up these rules and “why” they have such authority…
Lyrics:
All the trauma
Because of drama
Lives filled with it because of your mama
From horror movies featuring Osama
Mad tyrants like Obama
Unconditional following of the Dalai Lama
Feels like a movie
Ain’t it groovy
What are we living truly?
We crave excitement
For indictment
Instead of seeking enlightment
It’s like the drug that keeps us going
Wondering if it’s enough of what were showing?
Harvesting our ego, as it keeps growing
Curb your enthusiasm
With nothing but blatant sarcasm
Wondering if you’ll ever peak for an orgasm
The thrill
Of being a shill
All for a few measly dollar bills
Do you feel great?
I’m not here to hate
Just telling you to step up to the plate
Hit one out of the park
Show me that your life is filled with that happiness spark
Not with grieving depressing dark
So much darkness blooming
Around us, while we keep assuming
We are doing right, it’s really thought consuming
We need the approval
For our soul removal
To act a certain way
Have high expectations for this world made of clay
When all that we should really want is to play
Like kids
So innocent, but society forbids
Then it rids
Us of any of those thoughts
Connect the dots
Before your brain rots
Why crave?
Being a slave
When it’s another road we should pave
Everyone is so lost
In materialism, wanting their lives to be of the famous, but at what cost?
They won’t stop until they exhaust
Themselves, no matter the borders they’ve crossed
Are you really happy?
Just feeling crappy
And unhappy?
I need real answers so make it snappy
We’re all just clueless
Of what’s right and wrong, nuisance
We’re completely useless
As the time goes on
We never get any if it back, forever gone
Wasting it on the wrong things, from the break of dawn
Straight teeth
Emptiness beneath
Hiding what’s truly underneath
Plastic surgery
Plenty of purjery
Not happy with the outside
Completely lacking the inside
Because society had lied
Made you hide
Your true self, yet you abide
Then decide
To confide
In this great divide
While being supplied
The wrong ideals
Because you go by what appeals
Not really by how it feels
This is what most of us thrive
Fake boost to make us feel alive
Pre-programmed sex drive
While the love we deprive
Wrong ideas we derive
Because the wrong things we strive
Isn’t it start in to feel more like a play?
You have absolutely no say
In the trends that display
Blind following at it’s best
Even if it’s wrong, it still leaves many obsessed
While their purpose is suppressed
Society of many pill popping, depressed
Looking for a reason to keep on with the quest
Who would have guessed?
Everything was working just right
Everyone’s seemed to be in delight
Then the rules were changed overnight
From better to worst
I wonder if we’re cursed?
Can all the damage be undone and reversed?
We’re all just clueless
Of what’s right and wrong, nuisance
We’re completely useless
As the time goes on
We never get any of it back, forever gone
Wasting it on the wrong things, from the break of dawn
Just think about your actions hard
Make adjustments to your life and discard
All the wrong things society tries to bombard
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I like it, reminds me a bit of em in how you flow through your lines though at a slower tempo
As for the lyrics, I agree for the most part (maybe not as much on the Obama portion 
lol) nah I mean I get it, I just think people at the forefront of anything will always be judged harshly because they have to assume responsibility of everything that happens beneath their leadership (yes I mean all, trump bush Clinton on down)
I think overall though it serves the purpose I think you intend it to-reflection, and getting a heavy point across like that through music is no easy task a lot of times 
Mmmmaybe a little long but yeah, I liked it