The you part.
Love the you part!
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Not much left of that either 
The me part you see here, is an illussion.
It’s a digital figment of imagination, a dark emptiness filled and colored by the eye of the beholder…
And? …
Doesn’t matter.
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@Fravaco and still, you are an amazing person, one of the strongest I know! It acquires a lot of strength and perseverance to live your life. So you might feel like your life is not interesting, that doesn’t change te fact that you are who you are: a kind, loveable, strong and beautiful human being who is loved and supported 
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Jeez… guess last night I definitly wasn’t at my best. I even forgot to tag someone else…
So there you go @jFar920 @birdy1989 en why not, @anna834 
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@Fravaco And I thought you have for sure enough of my stories. Or maybe you just want to test if I start calling you names. Try a little bit harder and you will see. 
But of course my mind started working on this as soon as I saw the tag. Brooded the whole ride through the woods on it.
Oh, thats already three things, but to late to stop me now. So remember who ever tags me has to live with my story.
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Yesterday I felt really lonely. This feeling is a very old acquaintance and brings along his buddies shame and guilt. They start throwing there unwelcoming party and afterwards I’m exhausted and confused. Cause I don’t really get it. I like to be alone! To much people are in general to much for me. Even with close friends.
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So I decided to fight it by activ spamming a little. And sure embarrassment covered the loneliness. And it helped. I prefer embarrassment a 100 times over loneliness! And while I am at it:
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Once I read “Eat, pray, love” by Elizabeth Gilbert. Extraordinary book. There arise the challenge to describe yourself in one word. I thought for days about it and had tremendously beautiful words. Like strong, survivor, kind and on and on. But nothing felt quite right. And then it hit me. My word is guilt. GUILT. Totally true and what a blow. Ever thins I work on it. That it will be a word of my past.
Quite enough?
Who to tag?
Not @framos1792 you already have a lot of confession to do here! Thanks!
@annejprado 
@IronSoldier16 thank you!!!
And @Fravaco again, cause I find your live interesting. For someone who says in the I have never topic that he has done everything: You are way to concentrated on this rotting body in this room with the walls!
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You keep to amaze me with your honest and beautiful words 
thank for tagging @Fravaco and read this words a couple times a day 
- it’s weird that being alone doesn’t scare me atm. I haven’t felt like this in a loooooooooong time not really happy or anything, but just not as sad and missereable anymore
- I like to troll my husband but because of my depressed past he sometimes takes things to literaly, but I guess I can start again now
- I love my newest shisha with the diamond shaped vase. It’s pretty
- Edit: I get annoyed by my phones auto correct, it changes on into in all the time…
If @anna834 won’t tag @framos1792 then I will
So I tag @framos1792 and @Lilyope
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Did I… Gee, I must have done some serious flipping there 
… Luckily my memory is a sif from all the meds.
Well, I have done a lot, but you can never do everything, obviously… Maybe I meant that I have done (almost) everything that I ever wanted to do. However, lately, the “I wish I could once do” part of my life is exploding. But unfortunatly 80 % of those things have become fysically impossible to do for me…
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Hey! You were outside today! 
But ok, be …
sarcastic some more.
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Yeah for a short while… But too warm… So back between the walls… One advantage at home, you can cool off in any way you like 
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And you didn’t say anything…
Really? I prefer feeling lonely to feeling stupid!
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My brain is to squashy to come up with anything cooling you just hint and need sunglasses for.
Just happy that I’m not sheduled to work. Drifting in and out of sleep. Finally tierd.
@anomalia hey see you tiping!
Oh, yeah. Because this is so easy.
Really? I tend to feel stupid all the time acting the way I am with others. So, I survive.
The lonely feeling is to deep, so neer the pain (just near, but near enough) it’s heartbreaking in some ways and so full of longing.
No. Really no.
Huge di hug
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- I spent my free time in the last couple days remaking the bouncing DVD screensaver thing as a website. I’ll post a link somewhere here when I have it actually uploaded online
- The holes in my mouth from where my wisdom teeth were pulled still haven’t really closed up. The top two seem to have more, but I’m still getting food stuck in the bottom ones. At least there’s not pain anymore
- I may start streaming on Twitch in the future. I got a capture card on sale recently and my desktop can actually handle streaming, it’s my Internet that’s the problem, and the fact that I’m not all that interesting
There’s always multiple people being tagged during this and I don’t know who all participates in this, so I won’t tag anyone new
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Thank’s @birdy1989 for the tag
- So busy day at work at the moment, i feel like i have no time to do anything even if i’m doing a lot of things. Weird feeling!
- I’m in holidays in 8 days for 3 weeks. First time i take so many weeks in a row, i’ll see if it’s good for my mental health!
- I’m still alive after the hotest day of my entire life. Thank you for all support i got from LPU soldiers, air conditioner, my fan and Mike
Next ones @AJ_7 and @acemasters
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Heat wave where you live
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I know I could just say all the tags count as one 
but it’d be a let down perhaps soooo
- “Moved” (more like rolled) 4 tons of boulders today
- Smashed my middle finger during said project
- Was happy it was my middle finger so I could just go [spoiler]
[/spoiler] the whole time after
- Personally kinda adapted to the heat for the year by now -though I admit I think ours is a dryer heat -usually
- Will hit the ca state fair tomorrow to hang out
- I dislike roller coasters for the most part
the batwing is enough
- I worked one summer at the fair selling either ice cream or chocolate covered ants, scorpions, cockroaches etc etc, or weird meats
- Cleaning the ovens at that place was noooooot cool
- The Last day working there was actually my first all nighter worked Ot until the next day 7am
- Speaking to the fish earlier, I remembered I’ve drilled through my hand before
- Oddly enough that happened while in an art class and not at work
- Happy optimist mood
- My allergies are currently flared up
- The last two sound so contradictory
- Have to go to eye doc for new contacts prescription
There 3 tags by @anomalia 1 by @anna834 and one by @birdy1989
Edit: i totally forgot to tag!
And I was reminded by granny!
Sooo @anomalia muahahaha
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If it is your middle finger, now you can show it to anyone of your choice:‘Look, it’s just the finger I have smashed!’
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You already seems in one. Or is it the batmobile? For sure blowing through here in full speed. 
I specifically didn’t tag you. But @lpaniist did.
And you forgot to tag someone new.
Hope you’re still dead for the night, with the finger on some ice.
Be carfull with the boulder throwing today!
Made my day! Thank you dear birdy!
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Thanks @justinkilmer for the tag!
1- Was busy working till today, but now have free weekend
2- Next week I don’t have free saturday
3- Seems my employers appreciate my job, as secretary said to me yesterday and I’m really happy about it! I also appreciate very much the support I found here in my hard times, when I didn’t know if I would be able to do the work well… thank you all!! 
4- BONUS: bat @framos1792 seems so popular here!
Next: @lpaniist @IronSoldier16
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