What happened last year was not “traumatic” for me, I was already in a sad mood because of life events and life mistakes.
It just made me realize how much I care about LP. It took me back to my childhood and I had some regrets.
So now, I’m careful to not have regret anymore and even if I have to do things alone, I’ll do it. I don’t wait anyone to go to a music festival for example.
Chester’s passing that I still didn’t manage to get over. It sits with me. I have moments when I am ok, but still can’t listen to 99% of LP stuff. And definitely not for long as it is my trigger. I don’t know how I will get on on th 20th. I will be a mess.
I feel you. I hope I forget about it. But I don’t want to get into July. Awhile back I was able to listen and sing heavy. Then a few days ago, one of my ok days it came on and I skipped it. It’s iust ups and downs.