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#9825

Good evening/good morning soldiers - Sorry I couldn’t answer till now :sweat_smile:, it was just an absolutey awesome weekend

thanks for tagging and the recipe :pray:t2:

sounds good for me :sunglasses:

It was just awesome - check out your notifications :kissing_heart:

no way - and you’re gonna do it. So keep your dreams and ‘fight’ for it :muscle:t2: Also I tagged you for the ‘Sum 41’ photos - it was just awesome

thanks for this feedback - and back to you :kissing_heart: :hugs: :smiling_face_with_three_hearts:

take your time and if you can share more of them, it would be enjoyable :star_struck:

you’re always welcome and thanks for this quote - love that song too :pray:t2: :heart_eyes:

I was FOS but wore my 'black new balance’shoes and it was a good choice - after 30 minutes it got really ‘messy’ :rofl: :joy: greetings and squishies to you and always thank for the picture - Love that from Joe and Chester. I think it was around 2003/2004 at the VMAS’s?

it’s a change, but sometimes we gonna have to be strong enough to take changes and turn it inot good changes. So all the best to you :kissing_heart:

it’s getting busier :expressionless: saturday I have to go to university for 6 hours, so no good weekend :zipper_mouth_face: - but Thursday is going to be very good, bc It’s my next concert stop with ‘Five Finger Death Punch, Megadeath and Bad Wolves’ in Frankfurt :grimacing:

aaaaawwww :heart_eyes: thank you for that - squishy back to you :hugs: :kissing_heart:

Saw Rammstein - had to click it :grimacing: :sweat_smile: :sunglasses:

it was in his facebook story and IG story. Maybe 2 short videos for that :joy:

they’re online but had to them in a ‘big folder’ for you, so you can download it :kissing_heart: and thank you for driving me to my bestie :slightly_smiling_face: :pray:t2: :smiling_face_with_three_hearts:

Yeah, you’ve to be fast, so I’m gonna buy the tour shirts before show start :grin:

you’re good buddy? :worried: :disappointed_relieved: never thought, that the 49er would lose it :expressionless:

it was a good sunday :grimacing: :relaxed: - your thoughts for the Superbowl?

first question: Where can I buy something like this :exploding_head: :heart_eyes: :star_struck:

second quesiton: nooooo, why are you against the ‘Lord’? :stuck_out_tongue_winking_eye: #alwaysforSlytherin :sunglasses:

thank you :hugs: :heart_eyes: :smiling_face_with_three_hearts: - I’m back again, so be ready for the next WEP :sunglasses: :grimacing:

just wow - you’re the master of ‘sudoku’ :sweat_smile: how many of these do you in a day?

quick tags and squishies to @anngelenee @jrtrussell @melisLP @hilaryfol @StephLP18 @birdy1989 @Marilau @rickvanmeijel @IronSoldier16 @lpaniist

first of all: it’s good to share your thoughts and feelings. Don’t feel guilty or be ashamed for being in a bad mood or depressive. It’s a normal human thing. Maybe you’ve got some good family members or friends? Like I always ‘say’, crying is good to feel better and if you need this, do it. Let your feelings out and when you can just do that with music, then use music. Music is just the perfect catalysator and the right way for this. But please get these very dark thoughts out of your head. You’re worthy and your ‘vita’ is worthy! Don’t forget that.

If you wanna talk, I think we can help you to make a good plan for keeping you up.
Stay strong, bc you’re a strong person. Maybe to get you’re ‘head right up’ make some of your favorite things just like listen to music

Positivy, squishies and strength to you :kissing_heart:

and just think about this here:

Battle Symphony

you’ve got that ‘Battle Symphony’ and you can fuse it back together!!! :muscle:t2: :heart: :pray:t2:

OT: yeah, feeling a little bit like ‘low energy’, gonna be a tough week with saturday at the university :expressionless:

BUT: but I wrote before, on Thursday I’m going to see Five Finger Death Punch, Megadeath and Bad Wolves live in Frankfurt :grimacing: :sunglasses: :heart: :metal:t2: It’s my second concert stop for first half of 2020 and they’re are 4 more stops to go :sweat_smile: :laughing:

Hopefully everyone got’s a good start into the new week, stay strong soldiers :heart: :metal:t2:

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#9826

Sighhhh broken knuckles and holy walls :upside_down_face: besides that all good

A friend sent me this-I told her I wasn’t getting near her for a bit :rofl:

She was ready to sell off half the team for being inadequate :flushed:
I said poor future partner :joy:

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#9827

:laughing::sweat_smile: thank you! You’re super sweet :grinning_face_with_smiling_eyes::hugs::hugs::hugs:

It could be worse than sports teams :laughing:

Yoooooo bud, you’ve got us here bro
Plenty of shoulders to cry on if need be and also plenty of people that want to see you well and most of all want you to be here with us for the long haul
I told ironsoldier long ago that those thoughts can’t come near you until you meet every last soldier here in PERSON :triumph: til then you have a challenge and mission to accomplish and by then you will see that there’s plenty to be alive for :hugs::hugs::hugs:
I know it’s not cool to have people say things but you have to know we’re here and that those things have to be said so you know we’re here for you ok?

We’ve all carried and will carry loads that seem too much to bear but you’ll come through the other side of the tunnel stronger for it ok? Keep your head up bro :hugs::bat::black_heart::bat:

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#9828

Hey man! Thanks for the kind words. I know can be strong. I just feel very weak. :pensive: I listen a lot of music, but i can’t listen to music when I’m at work, so that’s what makes the situation harder. I need music when I am at work, that’s when i needed it the most. But I’m a enforcer, so i can’t listen to music on street. :sob:

I calt my best friend and talked with her about it and she give me the advice to go work somewhere else. It’s work that is pushing me down. I talk about this before, some coworkers are killing me. I really really really try hard not to listen. But somewhere it’s keeps going on in my head… argg… can’t stop the facking thoughts. :angry:

I agree with you about sharing emotions and I’m trying to. It’s just hard that I live alone and people think very quickly that I give up to fast. That I’m doing things without even trying. That I am a easy quitter :pensive:
I try really. It’s just… this job, the team… its not what i want… :no_mouth:

I’m just gonna go and eat pizza. And listen to some facking heavy metal :metal:

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#9829

Don’t settle buddy…I truly understand those feelings of having people see you as a quitter and not doing all you can…
be headstrong within yourself that the last word that matters was the answer to “did you try hard enough for yourself and your happiness?” If it’s yes then the rest cancels out
Wherever you end up HAPPY is far better than ending up somewhere where you reached your full potential but are miserable
Change the scenery, change the job, change the lifestyle if you must for you to do you and find that happiness-happiness which is yours to choose what that is
Set out your goal of what happiness is to you and go get that goal for yourself :muscle:
Baby steps getting out of this knowing some day you’ll reach what you want and all these dark days will have been worth it :slightly_smiling_face:

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#9830

Thanks man! thus really helps. :heart: I’m going to find something that makes me happy… i missed that feeling for a long time… the last time was with the Sum41 concert and before that the Skillet concert. Share the feeling with the crowd that is a great feeling…

The happiness needs to come within myself! And I’m tired to find that… but I’m gonna make it happen. :upside_down_face:

I’m screaming my lungs out here… listen to “Hope” from We Can As Romans… really the song what i feel right now… :joy:

Thank you again :heart: :bat:

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#9831

Normally, I just stick to the calendar. Once in a while, I’ll solve the puzzle in the newspaper.

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I do have a few books, too

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I’m working my way through the blue book, but the 3D puzzles look a little intimidating, too.

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Also sending strength to @drounzer today!

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#9832

:blush: you’re very welcome! :hugs: :hugs: :sun_with_face:

@drounzer sending you strenght! You are perfect the way you are with all your imperfections, got what I want to say? :hugs: :hugs: :hugs:

OT: just had dinner :yum:

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#9833

As the guys have said already, we are all here for you :hugs: I was hoping the positive music would really help and at least you find some strength from this…however small. Take it from someone who was emotionally unavailable for the last few years, things will start to get better. It might not feel like it today or tomorrow but someday you will start to feel some sort of connection with life again. Meanwhile, it’s okay to feel unhappy. It is a perfectly normal human emotion that we all experience. It won’t last forever, that much I promise you.

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#9834

@drounzer :hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::purple_heart::purple_heart::purple_heart:

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#9835

I had it for christmas in 2018, i think my dad bought it on Amazon! (so it’s the english version)

Second answer: Because the game purpose is to kill Lord Voldemort :sob::sob::sob: I won’t do it if it would have an other way to win it :joy::grin: #slytherinforever :relieved::metal:

OT: listening to the storm outside and reading the forum

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#9836

Fumble fore is disappointed in you :pensive:
Baaaagh! Football terms go away!!! I mean dumbledoreeeee :sob:

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#9837

Ooooh :pensive: But i have Lemon drop for him, it’s his favorite candies :relieved::joy:

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#9838

:thinking: lemon drop :raised_hand_with_fingers_splayed: vanquish the embodiment of darkness and hatred :raised_back_of_hand: :thinking:

I think you’ll need two :roll_eyes: :crazy_face:

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#9839

Watching films based on the Youtuber FilmComicsExplained. Awesome videos!

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#9840

Awww that puts a huuge smile on my face!:heart_eyes::heart_eyes::hugs::hugs::hugs:your post literally made my day(i could read it in the morning,but was in a hurry,as always​:grin:)-thinking of the forums always gives me a happiness-pusher :heart_eyes::hugs:
We are connected… loots of love to you!!! Stay strong too!:hugs::hugs::hugs:

:point_up_2:yeah.:hugs:

Yes i am😊thanks for asking!
And congrats on your results! Good to hear you passed​:kissing_closed_eyes::hugs:and hopefully you’ll have good times in the ‘new chapter in your life’!:hugs::heart::heart::heart:

Love and hugs back!:hugs::hugs::hugs::heart::heart:

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@drounzer: all i wanna do now is to give you a tight tight hug,or better thousands of them,'til you feel lost in love and warmth instead of lost in depressing thoughts,and i wish i could give you a shoulder to cry on,but f*ck the distance! But please imagine as hard as you can,when you need to cry,how we all here lend you our shoulders to lean on!:hugs::heart::heart::heart:go on,you can do it,you are a strong person,and this

Is a pretty good point! We need you🤗 can you change your working place? Being with different (not so shitty) co-workers? Or would that mean,to give up the whole job? But if it takes you that down,then it’s better to change the job if possible…
However,i really hope with listening to good music(the best medicine :muscle:),you’re better now. And,bc as you also said,concerts are the best ,maybe plan some more for this year?(if you haven’t already,and if there are some good ones near you​:hugs:)

I’m going to bed now,listening to the rain(really wish it was colder,then we would have snow from two days straight!:confused:), sending some hugs and love to you ALL,:hugs::hugs::hugs:and stay positive soldiers!:heart::heart::heart::heart:

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#9841

Hey you all :hugs: :smiling_face_with_three_hearts: :revolving_hearts:

670km, 7 hours drive home :european_castle:
Got an welcome dinner by my son, wow! 18 is great :grin: and now, after three weeks, in my own bed! :relaxed:
Was already writing a post in my mind on my drive, will see if I get it together. :upside_down_face:

Hey @drounzer :heart_eyes: you got already a lot of great replies, but still one from me too!

Please, don’t fake it, if you don’t feal it. It’s hurting yourself. You know, we take you what ever way you are. :hugs: :green_heart:

Don’t!
Decide that you not do it.
This is it, in the end. Your decision to not do it!
Maybe set yourself some lines. Not, as long as you’re (grand)parents are alive. Not, as long as your niece is not grown up. You don’t want her to be the kid with the so loved but dead uncle.
Taking your life is not ending the pain, but passing it on.

I get and got this too. Not only with jobs but with marriage also. A lot of people love to be stuck in their miserable lifes. It isn’t quitting to change what is hurting!

Honestly, I think, this job is just fucked. And it isn’t so you had the wrong dream. But to many other people do this job for the wrong reasons, to gain and have power. To stand against this alone? It is ok to say, that’s to much!
Maybe there is another place, offering the same work, with a better team?
Or, there are lots of jobs in helping others. Working with old or disabled people, or as inclusion helper in school…

Ok, again lots of words from my side. Don’t see it as smarty pants talk. Just thoughts, to bounce around.

You are an awesome human beeing! :star_struck:
So courages to go into battle with your own demons and finding the strength to talk, when you are this way.
Still can’t do it. Sigh.
Love :smiling_face_with_three_hearts:, bonecrushing hug :hugs: :hugs: and some pics for you:

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And even so, you had that pic before:

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Yeah, I have extradited myself above. I do this on purpose, betraying this other me, back stabbing it, turning it over. Closing in on this fucked up ideas! Pull them into the light. I am the one, who makes the decisions!!

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So OT
Yesterday I wanted to visit my best friend. But right before I could leave, my grandma called. She couldn’t really breath, and if my bff could maybe take a look at her.
So my bff organised her kids with her husband and we met at my grandmothers.
Oh, my grandmother looked bad. Loosing strengh and weight for months now. Everytime I visit, she is a little less.
And then, being with her and my best friend.
Seeing my bff turning into the professional doctor she actually is. Testing, controlling, talking to my grandma.
And at the same time, seeing us as little girls, blond and brown haird, getting teached by my garndma preparing pancakes.
There was joy and pain at the same moment.

This morning, I visited my grandmother again before leaving. 91, and so fragile. It’s nothing much left, besides her extraordinary mind. All strengh gone. And I know, I should accept it, going much further from this will mean things, no one want to go through in the end.
But I… don’t know.
And stop with this now.

Still, don’t want to end this post, let it close with lighter stuff!

When ever you are ready! :hugs: :revolving_hearts:

I see it as lucky coincidence now. So love my tee! It has sheep horns! :laughing:
Just an awesome day! Still taking from it! :hugs: :heart_eyes:

Oh! No problem there! :smiling_imp:
It’s already Tuesday here!! What’s wrong with you? To exhausted of the superbowl? :smirk:

I actually watched it. My first football game ever. For certain reasons I was for the 49ers, even so my bffs husband is a chiefs fan his whole live and with this never made the superbowl.
(Wasn’t the mother with her son, who watched the game 50 years ago, sweet? :heart_eyes:)
I actually not really planned, staying awake the whole game.

I totally get her!
It wasn’t the 49ers that kept me awake, tbh.
The rolling over thingy :flushed: :joy:

.:joy: :joy: :rofl:

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So, can’t get tagging done today.
But one last, for you @all :two_hearts:
and my flower queen @lpfan61 :green_heart: :heart:
finally :tada: in my mothers garden:

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#9842

Rolling over? :thinking:

#9843

https://www.ran.de/us-sport/nfl/video/super-bowl-liv-so-kam-es-zum-spin-o-rama-trick-play-der-chiefs-clip

#9844

Oh dear, it’s really okay to feel that way when you are going through such situations. You are going through it and still alive means you are soo strong ! :muscle: Treat this pain, dissapearance like seasons…they come and go, happy time will soon come when you’ll really feel happy. If it’s the coworkers and the boss issues then please don’t worry. As i told before focus on the people who are good with you. And if it’s not working you can find a better job for yourself where you’ll be peaceful. Ik that would take time but it’s worth :heart::hugs: stay strong we all are with you!

Other replies later because

Love y’all!! :heart:

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