I’ve seen a lot of people say they’re going to take their refund money and donate it to Music For Relief in his memory.
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That is really nice of them 
I don’t know how to deal either, going to work I just feel like I’m going through the motions but I’m just blah. I feel fragile, like the world has kept moving and I’m still standing there in shock and if someone bumps me the wrong way I’m just gonna loose it. It really is like we’ve lost a friend even though we never knew him.
I’ve never been able to see them live when they’ve been in Australia- always around exam time and tickets go on sale when I’m broke as. I was hoping for them to come back down under it’s been ages since they’ve been here. but now I’ll never get the chance.
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Hi. First of all sorry for my English it is not so good. I just wanted to share with you my feelings. I can’t believe. It has been 2 days and I still wake up and check the news is there was a mistake and he is alive, but noo:weary: It might sound stupid and I try not to cry and ve strong but when I am alone I think I am never going to hear anything else f him, anything new of this amazing voice… I had the big chance to ser them for first and last time las month 22 july in Spain. I also had meet&greet and have a photo with him giving me a hug. It is hugeeeeeeeee for me. It passed so fast that I couldnt even realize it. When I saw him getting in the room I couldnt believe it. I have been listenning to them since I was 15 (29 now) since One step closer. I love his voice, love the way he was, his laugh his jokes, his moments and friendship with Mike and the rest of the guys. I even was happy and jelous about how lucky Talinda was to be with a guy like him. They looked ssooo happy. Well, I am grateful that I met them it was amazing. And the n we see the concert from the frontstage. It doesn’t help me right know… I could expect this from anyone but him:confounded: I can understand they had preaseure with OML, Chris Cornell’s death and he has also problem like any other human being… but killing himself… oh please noo. So young, so handsome, so kind, so many things… and his voice… I am absolutelly inloved with his voice. I listen to them every day, like 80% of music and videos I see is about them:sob:
I dont knoe what I am gonna do now:confounded: nothing else of him. NEVER AGAIN.
I don’t know what is going to happen with LP. It is too soon to know it. All I know is that I want them to keep together, maybe not like linkin park but anotger group with another singer. But I am also sad when I think that they are never going to play all these amazing songs again. I don’t know what to think right know. I cant imaginate another singer singing like him… doing his role. I know he is irreplaceble!!!
I also think a lot of his family, Talinda (omg poor, she seemed soooo inloved with him), his 6 childen, the band… They were coleagues and friends… If we feel bad and devasted, I can’t imagine how they feel:disappointed_relieved:
I just wanted to share with u my feelings. I am sad, really sad. My mother passed away 3 years ago and, lik I said before LP has been always with me.
Last month when I saw him I wanted him to write on a peace of paper “one more light” and make a tattoo and put my mother’s name on a side. If he had written it with his own words it would have been the most amazing tattoo…2 lights in my life. But when I saw it… I just was speechless I forgot everything. So then I thought well next year on the next meet&greet… but there won’t be next:confounded:
So thank u for reading, for sharing your stories and feelings. It helps a lot. I send you all my support and love. It is so hardd to believe… Why Chester, why😭
Rest in peace. We will never forget you and always love you and miis you. Chester Bennington forever
in our hearts 
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Thank you for sharing. I completely understand how you feel. I still feel so lost and broken because of this. I don’t know how long I will be in tears for but it is comforting to know we are not alone. I am sorry for everything you have been through. We have all been through our own versions of hell and Chester and Linkin Park is who kept us sane. We should be happy that he left us his legacy and we can still hear his voice though he is gone… We can all get through this together. Its been days but it still hurts and at times feels so surreal. Like its all a bad dream. Like we will all wake up and have it all be fake. A part of me hopes that’s the case but I know its not and that makes this pain worse. It hurts. All their lyrics were so strong and touched each and every one of us. It is why we are here. WE are not alone. We have to take it one day at a time. I’m here also if you ever need to talk. We all need someone who understands how we are feeling. Not everyone gets it, but I am sure the rest of us here do. <3
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For anyone who’s not following LPFanCorner on Twitter, I highly recommend it. They have dedicated a couple hours today to remember the best of Chester and making people smile again and it worked. I’m still heartbroken and I cried through half of the stuff but I got some great laughs and smiles from it too. I don’t know if I’ll ever stop crying but I think it’s vital to remember it’s ok to laugh too.
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I keep thinking it’s all a giant mistake too. I wake up every morning hoping I’ll check my phone and have a bunch of notifications saying he’s back. I have dreams about him being alive and I wake up and my brain thinks of every possible scenario that I could have done to change what happened. Like, if I could have gotten into one of the meet and greets and talked to him, would it have changed it? Then I have to remind myself that I can’t change the past and that dwelling on not being able to save him isn’t healthy. It’s just hard with how many times he saved me, so instead I wrote him a letter. I told him how I feel and how hurt I am and I told him how he helped me since I never got the chance to before. I wrote it all down and got it out of my head and maybe somewhere he’s able to see it. I don’t know if that might help you too but it took a little bit of the weight off my shoulders. I thought just writing about it would be good enough but no matter how much I wrote about it, even after I wrote this post, it just wasn’t helping, but I finally built myself up to writing directly to him and it made it just a little less shitty inside my head.
Just a few wise quotes from the Harry Potter <3
“It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live. Remember that.”
“Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times if one remembers to turn on the light.”
“Do not pity the dead, Harry. Pity the living and all those living without love.”
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Perfect quotes <3
and I feel we “turned on the light” tonight with all the funny & nice memories about Chester with the #RIPChester tag.
if some of you have missed it, I recommend you to go check chester.linkinpark.com, it’s full of happy memories, videos and pictures of Chester <3
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If you can, listen to their music or find funny moments/special ones to you that you will remember! That is all I can say and it has helped me through the last few days!
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Thank you for this thread! I have been I die hard Linkin Park fan since I was a teen. At 30 now, I feel like half of my life is missing. I have literally just got back from my Dr’s… gone back onto anti-depressants, after being off them for 10 years now. Everything that has happened in my life, I felt like I wasn’t alone because of Linkin Park! Chester’s voice made me feel like I wasn’t alone. I seriously looked up to him. Saved me so many times when I was at the edge and now I feel lost. How do you cope with this sort of grief? I lost my best friend 2 years ago, but I had parts of her to have close to me. Through all the shit & dark times in my life, I could survive with the sound of Chester’s voice, the lyrics you could relate to… But now… His voice, videos, pictures… All make me completely break down. I’m in tears again just writing this. But because of this thread… I don’t feel alone. Still lost, but I know that I’m not the only one feeling this way! Love to you all!!! I care!
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omg everything you wrote is exactly what I’ve been going though! I was just talking to my counselor and asking her the same questions. Their music has been my safe place since 2000 and for so long their albums have been the soundtrack of my life. No matter what, I have felt that I always had their music to support me. Listening to Chester sing always helped me through the darkest times in my life. Now, the music that once used to comfort me and drag me out from my darkness causes pain…I can’t hear his voice without crying. I feel lost because the person who always helped me cope for the last 17 years is suddenly gone. Like how do you get over that?
Sending love to all y’all!
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Thank you for sharing. Know that your story has similar roots in so many of us and that we all feel as you do. I am still shocked and devastated by this tragedy. I had the same problem as you too, Linkin Park lead by Chester’s voice has carried me so many times in my life through the darkest moments and brought me through to a better place. Listening to it now brings me sadness and I have cried so much more over the last several days than I thought I would. It still hurts. But what I have found is that the music still helps, still heals, even if it is slowly. Then there is here. There is facebook, instagram, twitter, the LPA, and of course here, the LPU. I am overwhelmed by the amount of support I see from everyone. It helps warm my heart and I know that Chester would be proud. Keep sharing memories everyone, keep sharing stories. Above all keep sharing with each other and never be afraid to reach out. Not a single one of us is alone, we are all together. We grieve together and we will all move forward together. Much love to all of you and thank you for everything so far and going forward <3
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I feel like a complete sh*t ever since his death. After my lunch, I just got into my car and a radio was playing “Burn it Down.” It was a very unusual song they played on the radio. Then the radio host mentioned a band member committed suicide. I thought he was joking around until I drove home and went online. It was Chester. My head was lightheaded. I was speechless. I couldn’t cry. I listened to the A Thousand Sun album the night before. Before that, I was listening to One More Light album at least twice a week since its release. I was not happy that day.
On every road trips, I bring at least one Linkin Park album. Whenever I listen to Given Up, Victimized or some heavy songs, I’ll try to scream like him. I never got tired of him. I haven’t thought about this but he had a damn good voice. I told myself: whatever genre they’ll do in the future, even if he doesn’t scream, I’ll stick to them no matter what.
I was looking forward to see Linkin Park in October. It was going to be my first time seeing them on live. I bought a Battle Symphony VIP ticket (the closest to the meet n greet) so that hopefully they’ll say hi to us, especially Chester. One day I wanted to shake his hand. Too bad it won’t happen because of what happened last Thursday.
I haven’t listened to One More Light album ever since then. People keep making things up that haven’t been confirmed (e.g the lyrics are his suicide notes). I don’t want the lyrics to change my perspective because of his death. I’m still waiting for the official statement regarding his death and the band. It’s been a bad week. I’ll get over it, eventually. But this singer hits me the hardest.
Thanks for reading y’all.
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Each day seems to get weirder. I cry less, but every time I do it feels like there’s a wolverine trying to rip it’s way out of my chest and stomach. Or like a black hole is opening up around my heart and trying to pull me into it. I also have panic attacks every time LP or one of the guys posts something and I think that’s because I know whatever it is, it’s going to break me. And it always does. On one hand, I want to be determined to live my life for Chester. To be strong and keep going and be a part of keeping his memory alive. But on the other hand, I face those demons too and his death has fed them and made them stronger than I’ve ever faced before. It was like throwing a barrel of gasoline on the fire when I was only barely keeping the flames under control to begin with. I don’t want to be numb. I want to feel this loss. I want to grieve and remember how much he means to me but the mental illness on top of it is unbearable and it’s either all or nothing. Every time I finally get my head above water, I get sucked back under and I can’t seem to find the shore.
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I’m not Chester, I’m not professional, but I’d listen gladly if you need to talk about anything <3 you can pm me anytime for whatever reason.
I know you can’t see much light right now anywhere, but try to remember that Chester’s light is not gone or lost completely. His spirit will always live through his music and our hearts, as long as we remember him and keep listening to his music. We will go through this together, we will share this pain and heal together <3
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I too am what is I’ve classified as one of the “Damaged”. By that mean I had to endure too many forms of abuse from age seven till sixteen when I finally had enough and stood my ground. Over the next remaining years (I’ll explain in a bit) my predecessor (whom we refer to by my legal name) was on a fast track to graduating to complete spirit way too early.
Now remember when I said I’d explain in a bit, well here we go. At age seven when the abuse first started I was experiencing things that went against my nature. I couldn’t handle what was happening to me and retreated into the recesses of my mind and created my own world to live in. All the while I also created what you might call a character to handle what I couldn’t face at the time. There I stayed until 2004. When my predecessor’s action came to a head and I had to be revived according to my doctor four our five times. After three and a half months in a drug induced coma and another two or three weeks on the seventh floor I begged to be released to my wife’s care. She fought for me just as my (at the time five years old) daughter literally bitched God out for calling me home.
Once out of the hospital and back among my family again a unanimous agreement was made by everyone that knew me before this all happened. That agreement was that I was not the same person they admitted to the hospital on July 5th. Just four days after my 29th. birthday.
Over the next few years i made an almost 100% recovery minus some physical side effects and losing most of the memory (visual pictures, the knowledge of what happened to me as child was still there. I could no longer access it when I wanted. It now has to be triggered) and my higher cognitive functions along with short term memory. During my recovery my wife and I determined the person admitted to the hospital was indeed a different person. (A strong point for this was I don’t recognize my own face. To this day.) We have come to call him by my legal name and refer to him as either my predecessor or Mr. Dinan. During these past years I’ve been listening to bands with what I can only call therapeutic songs.
Bands like Linkin Park with songs like Numb and Burn it down.
Therapeutic songs were ones I found that seemed to say some or all of the things I was thinking but had been programmed by my abuser not to say. I let the music literally scream out the agony and pain and suffering I was feeling. My favorite is New Divide. The line “give me reason to prove me wrong wash this memory clean.” Triggered in my mind something that finally helped me let go of all the pain and hurt and loneliness I had been feeling. Then I listened to songs that would uplift me. With the help of friends whom I’ve since assumed as family and my wife of now just over twenty years ( not legally married. Don’t need to be.) we were able to ensure the mistakes made upon me as a child would never get revisited again upon my daughters or anyone else. Now when I can’t seem to get my bearings I listen to songs that remind me of the strength I gained thanks to the challenges and trials God had set before me. Confiding in a therapist helps too.
My advise to those that share the past that all of us have in common with Chester is to face the demons that were forced upon us with your most trusted of family and friends. We may have felt alone then. We are definitely not now. Thank you Chester for letting the world know who we are and how we are feeling.
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I have panic attacks since 2007. I have all symptoms of it. Racing heart, hyperventilation, sense of terror, and feel like I’m dying. I have those episodes so often. Nobody in my family understand me, even my mom. Whenever I’m having panic attack episodes ALL of my family only can be angry with me, blaming me, and calling me faint hearted and I can only make them ashamed. My friend… I don’t have any friend because I also have shyness since I was in junior high school. I was also bullied there. I don’t know if I have depression or not because I never feel suicidal, but sometimes I don’t enjoy doing things I usually enjoy, just want to cry and I often have the thoughts of “what’s the point of life if in the end we all gonna die, no matter you do everything or not? I’d better lay down here and waiting for the death to come rather than doing anything”. I don’t have anybody to talk to because nobody in my family understand me and I don’t have any friend. When I listen to Linkin Park I feel relief because finally someone out there understand me. That was the first time I feel the real happiness because my happiness before I listen to them is just a mask. They helped me in my darkest days. I can relate to most of their songs. I relate the most with the song Somewhere I Belong. That’s why I cried when I heard Chester is dead. I wish I could met him and thanked him before he died 
I still feel broken now.
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